Ask Lemmy

Welcome to my world, friend. It's not as if I don't have friends because I couldn't put on the societal mask and make them; I just simply hate humans that much. Only people I can stand being around are philosophers. People who take a step back and think about the world from a unburdened point of view, and people who talk about what the solutions might one day be.

Only thing that ended up saving me is my wife and children. I would have clocked out long ago. Find someone that hates humanity with you, and cherish them. Or find someone who loves humanity to balance you.

I don’t know what to tell you. One of the major reasons I decided not to have children is because the future looks so bleak.

You’ve already given your opinion on therapy. All I can suggest is that you keep trying. I know that’s exhausting, but please hear me out. Finding the right therapist is essential, and can take several attempts. The same goes for the type and dosage of medication. Depression isn’t like other forms of disease. What works for one person may not work for someone else.

What I’ve learned from the various psychiatrists and psychologists I’ve seen is that there’s still a LOT we don’t understand about how the brain works. I don’t think less of them for trying anyway. They’re (mostly) good people trying to do their best.

Well, that turned out to be a lot for a reply that started with “I don’t know what to tell you.” Oh well. I’ll skip the platitudes and simply wish you well.

Not ironic here: I was at a very low point, and what I did was ditch everything, brought some gear to sleep outside, and decided to see how long I could stay outside with just my fishing gear.

To be fair, I brought freeze-dried food for a couple days, but after about a week I felt better enough to head back to society.

What I did that week was primarily fish for dinner and gather firewood for the evening. Did wonders for my psyke.

I think that is called the human condition.

Antidepressants

Schedule everything then? If you’re already nothing then suffering through some anxiety to plan something new isn’t much worse than literally nothing right? So plan shit out, and stick to said schedule. Find a hobby where you can meet people you don’t hate? Music, games, fostering kittens, whatever idk.

You clearly need a community. There are millions of them, plenty accepting. Just ideally find a positive one before you end up in a negative one.

Learn to love yourself. And look for help. You don't know what the future will be, things can change drastically sometimes in just a few weeks.

Either get used to change in the hopes it will become better, or get used to being miserable in my life you have now. By the way, you’re gonna be uncomfortable in One Direction or the other, so I suggest you choose the better one.

If you hate your life now, but are also terrified to change, you’re gonna have to decide which one is worth, and during that discomfort: things staying the same, the way you hate it, or enduring the terror of the unknown, your life, possibly improving.

See a professional, seriously, because this sounds like textbook early depression.

Did you try jerking off?