i really really need some space to vent about this and i do kinda feel bad for making this all about me because the guy clearly needs help but goddamnit this shit just sucks. like what the fuck. i search three years for a new affordable place, finally find one, meet two of the people living there and they are cool and chill and those tell me that the third roommate has fallen on some hard times lately and is probably moving out soon, but you know i don't think about that too much, the place is really cheap and big and I really don't feel like continuing to be on the market forever.
so i get the keys at the beginning of this month, look at the place and actually get to know the third roommate, who seems like an actually pretty chill guy, has some cool hobbies, cares for the plants in the place, always really forthcoming and helpful with me getting to know the place, offered to help me with assembling my furniture and everything. guy has clearly went to a few too many raves and smokes too much weed, but okay, I don't judge, he just likes to play his shitty techno too loud, i guess i can live with that.
so i've been painting my new room, have deep cleaned the floor (which really needed it), got a new bed and a new mattress delivered, had dinner at the new place yesterday evening, went to my old place to sleep, content and with like a good positive feeling about the new place and the new roommates and the future in general-
I wake up this morning, check my phone and see there's a new e-mail: the most unhinged e-mail by my third roommate to our landlord about how he is suffering hunger, cannot pay his rent and about how we other roommates don't care about this, etc. etc. All untrue as far as I can tell, the guy proudly all showed me the new shit he bought just a few days ago, last I saw him yesterday evening he made himself a like a pretty healthy looking meal.
i copy-paste the e-mail to my other roommates and they like barely reacted? just went "oh yeah don't worry about this, your contract won't be affected by this, also don't be alarmed but our apartment looks ransacked and the floor is dirty as hell"
I don't even know where to start? like is this normal behaviour? is this not alarming to them? is this guy actually moving out or not? do they think its cool to live together with a guy who semi-regularly goes into psychosis? is this not stressful to them? i guess they have like other places to retreat to when this happens, but i sure as hell don't. if this has happened before why the hell didn't they warn me before i signed the contract? am i insane or is everyone else who lives there?
goddamnit all i want is a little peace and quiet for a bit, an affordable place to live together with cool roommates to hang out with
People long for connections with other people that aren't sporadic or contingent or volatile or shallow. People need so much more support and social contacts than they get and they need so much more time to support and nourish these contacts, but they get neither of them, capitalism as always is burning the candle from both ends, creating ever more unstable life's and ever more pressure on people, while at the same time taking away any and all ways people would have to deal with them, through social connections and communities. Everyone you know is tired and needs somebody, but everyone you know is also too tired to be that somebody.
ChatGPT is never too busy to answer, ChatGPT never wants to talk about their own feelings, ChatGPT is never going to disagree with you, ChatGPT is never going to go away, ChatGPT doesn't have any other friends, ChatGPT is never going through it themselves, ChatGPT is never tired, ChatGPT is always there for you.