chapotraphouse

I've known guys like you who let the not getting laid thing develop into an obsession and have had such an obsession myself a long time ago. I can't really help you with that, I couldn't help the other guys and I myself only really understood how ridiculous that attitude is after I spent some time in a relationship, so I didn't really need to outgrow it. I'm lonely again now and have been for years, but my experience tells me that fucking wouldn't somehow make me whole and it's not worth obsessing over. I can't transmit that to you, so basically there's just the drop in the bucket as my anecdotal evidence.

So you were in a relationship? Some person told you "I love you" and no matter how short it was for a single faction of your existence you were loved and desired by somebody? Somebody told you "I want to share my life (however brief) with you?" That's all I want, just give me a single second of that and I'll never complain again. It's not about getting laid, it's about being desired. And being desired is a basic normal human need and when that need is not met and has never been met you'll lose your mind.

That's why you grew out of it when you had a relationship.

Sorry for having a mental illness, sorry for being stupid, sorry for being socially inept, sorry for not being a productive worker sorry for not being normal sorry for being born to poor parents who beat me, sorry for not rising above my class, sorry for being not normal, sorry for being such a loser, do I now deserve love?????????