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Haha. I'm working on that too. Finally starting to lose fat.

Thank you for playing by the rules. Cuz those are some very pretty boobs. Made me day better.

Time to emulate one of Disneys greatest heros - Captain Jack Sparrow.

I have 32GB in my laptop and it feels like overkill 99% of the time.

Can't wait until they and their families start being threatened with deportation and put on watchlists.

That'll show the Democrats.

Anyone who voted for Trump gets zero empathy from me.

I dropped Xitter as soon as it became apparent that Elon was going to buy it and started pirating Disney (and everyone else) shortly after. Couldn't tell you the last time I bought anything IBM but I'll have to be more careful about it. I'm switching to a local fiber provider so I'm leaving comcast in a couple of weeks.

Very true. Now, I need to figure out what I like to do and find groups that do that.

I should check to see if I have MeetUp installed. I don't use Meta products, so that's kinda the go-to I've used.

I see what you mean.

I honestly need to work on slowing down - being more mindful. I have very bad ADHD and even with good medication, I struggle to stop and think before acting.

That definitely doesn't help. The medicine helps but I have not been putting in the work often enough to be less reactive and random.

Also - I've made progress over the past few years in accepting myself. I still want to blame myself 100% for everything though and I still allow my desire to improve to feed the negative self-talk.

I appreciate your response and for reminding me of things that can help.

I appreciate that they're willing to do this.

With it being Idaho (a less liberal version of Utah), I'm not sure it's going to help. I van honestly see a judge saying "it's Gods will."

At this point, if I go back on any dating apps, I'm definitely going to mention that I've had a vasectomy.

It was my body and I'm glad I could make the choice.

I don't regret it at all.

I really do appreciate your response.

I have been limiting myself unconsciously - again - and ended up paying for it. I was so desperate for a friendship that I ignored some reddish flags and attempted to navigate them once they were obviously red.

Those negative voices that tell me I'm not good enough to have friends and that I'm unlovable won.

I didn't mean to upset them so much but I'm glad I did. They were treating me like garbage at times and I am better than that.

Your points regarding the examples of friendship we have are spot on. I was running on a sort of autopilot that was programmed by poor parenting (I'm being generous here) and unrealistic media.

I have a lot of work to do on myself but I know that I can find people that I can bring into my life to some degree that will help me overcome that loneliness and maybe even help each other be better.

I used to use Meetup and I should get back onto it and see what's going on around me.

I definitely want and need to socialize and feel like a part of something that isn't work.