Hohsia

I’m going to need to go for a walk. Maybe delete all my social media, maybe get a new phone, etc

I feel like I don’t need to over explain myself for my this is really fucking damning

I met someone on discord last year, and I don’t quite have the words to describe the lead up. One minute we were gaming and the next minute I was in their apartment 1200 miles away, but like I said, the feelings were unreal and I can’t imagine ever finding anything like it again. Ngl a part of me feels like it will forever be pretty empty. Didn’t really scratch the surface of how much it meant to me but yeah, sometimes it’s hard to ever imagine moving on. Sucks

That is all, but I do know it feels like imprisonment

It is just incomprehensible to me how I am asked to upgrade to a the next “tier” for something as simple as a data model shape. I’m not kidding when I say this is something you could easily create in something like paint (and/or apply the techniques from these ubiquitous LLM slop machines into an effective use case. Instead, you get priced at increasing 5 dollar intervals so you can now place an attribute with more lines.

I’m really trying to accept this shit, I really am, but it just becomes even more absurd the more I look into it. Doesn’t seem ridiculous to claim that a majority of the value we get from technology is predicated on people’s ignorance, and it’s kind of hard not to see at this point. But that’s ignorance that you and I have to deal with every day for the rest of our lives, especially as things become increasingly digital. The ominous nature of this shit continues to show signs at every corner, yet everyone in my life is still using it without a critical thought. I have many of those if you couldn’t tell.

I truly just want to take all of this shit I’ve learned about capitalism and tech and turn it all off.

Just a bunch of autonomous, non-thinking algorithms in data centers scattered across the country farming for rage bait/clicks. It’s all propped up by unthinkable amounts of capital which drops people’s consciousness in to one liberal bucket to craft a reality which makes them the most bigoted humans on earth. Incredible work

The internet is such a fucking dead end