I need some impartial third party advice.
I told my mom the other day that she clearly doesn't love or care about me because of the way she voted. I don't believe she can both love her trans daughter while simultaneously willingly inflicting as much suffering as possible.
I decided to block her for a few days.
My aunt, who also hated Trump, is someone I could previously confide in. She cold shouldered me after I sent her the text I had previously sent to my mom.
Finally my aunt was an adult and texted me back last night with this.
"Thought would not have any effect. Didn’t like text you sent your mom. U R on my naughty list was not nice, u owe her an apology. Election wasn’t close decisive across country broke blue wall. Like it or not will be our president next 4yrs be an adult accept & move on!! U take too personal & how it impacts you. We all have choices/decisions it’s about Respect can’t expect others to respect yours if you can’t extend the same courtesy to others. No idea what u r talking about lying never questioned or said you were on job search, good luck with that. I’m taking a long break, disappointed have my own health/medical issues to address so focusing on that & me now. Happy Thanksgiving"
Now this is a person who texted me constantly about what a "pig fucker" Trump is, then she went radio silent a week before the election. When I inquired about the post election results she said "the world isn't ready for a woman president so I didn't even vote." I have a strong feeling she actually voted for Trump and couldn't stomach telling me that to save face.
Anyways- so I did call my mom and try to apologize against my better judgement. She didn't answer so I left a voicemail. Basically I said I'm sorry I reacted that way, and I'm under a lot of stress.
She hasn't replied in text or called back continuing to cold shoulder me essentially throwing my apology in my face.
Now I'm furious. My sister cut my mom out for months because my parents wouldn't send her money for college. The second she called them back they took her in with open arms as if nothing ever happened. They never treat me that way. Brittany is the golden child of my mom and my stepdad (her current husband). The standards are entirely different for my sister and I. I've always been treated worse.
Based on this limited view of my family what should I do? I'm thinking about rescinding my apology and just cutting them out forever. To me it seems clear they don't actually care about me at all.
When I was hospitalized for three days from my bike accident my mom never came to see me. She's a 9 hour drive away. When I had my highly invasive SRS she never called to check on me when I was recovering in the hospital. She actively hated the fact I was even doing it telling me "I'll never look right."
Pretty sure she's an objectively awful human being.
Speaking as someone who cut their mother out of their life, I'd tell you to follow your heart.
Having once been in your situation, I have a feeling you already know what you want to do and you're just looking for validation of that choice. And I will say you and your feelings are valid, because sometimes family just sucks - because family are still people and people suck. if you feel, for your own physical or mental health, that you need to cut her out of your life, do it. It's your life, you get to choose who you associate with. You're not obligated to hang out with assholes just because that's where you spawned.
It will be hard. I'm not even going to lie to you there, but in the end you will be happier that you did. It was rough for me when I cut my mother out of my life, especially because I effectively made her homeless, but her toxicity and drama and danger she brought along was not worth subjecting my new family to.
Based on what you've shared, you e got plenty of reasons to cut her/them out of your life. Just make sure you have a good support network to fall back on if you do.