I'm afab and if the surgery was possible for turning what I have into a fully functioning dick, I would have done it by now.
Basically I'm comfortable with my perceived gender, I just wish how I see myself mentally when I think about sex, matched up to what I've got in my pants. I've felt this way since I was a young teenager too, so it's not a phase or a fetish, it's how I've wanted to present sexually for most of my life.
Does this disconnect I'm talking about just fall under the non-binary trans umbrella? Or is it a seperate thing?
Are there any other people here who feel this way?
(Phalloplasty does not appeal to me. The surgery is brutal, it doesn't look right (to me) when it heals, it isn't functional how I would want it to be, and it isn't sensitive like a dick.)
Oh wow, I really appreciate your replying to this!
I considered trying testosterone cream for growth down there when I was younger but the increased body hair really put me off. I'm naturally already hairy and used to be very, very beardy when I was younger. Seriously, if I was a trans man I would have lucked out on the facial hair front. I obsessed over plucking it all out throughout my teens, and then in my 20's had so many electrolysis sessions and yet I'm in my 30's now and still have to shave every few days as these damn follicles just haven't fucking died.
The lower voice thing though is something I'm after. Despite my not being a very talky person anymore, I've been casually voice training for a while now since discovering it could be done without T. Women with low voices are cool and Dr Girlfriend is low key goals.
Back when I was still into having sex, straps and similar toys were something I was really into and there's a few shapes/styles which I really enjoyed as I could have a dick while also getting sensation from the other areas it was in contact with. The positioning was always off though as what felt best didn't fuck best and visa versa. Also most of mine were purple or pink as my skin tone doesn't really come in dildo format and other 'skin' colours look gross usually.
Soft packers aren't my jam from what I've tried of them, but I've not actually seen functional prosthetics before, these are very interesting!
I think I just had a moment of gender euphoria from seeing an actual dick looking dick that fucks like a dick, attached to someone like that. I'm going get one of these, I want to see that on myself. Thank you for linking that site!
If it's ok with you, I might message you at some point just to say hello and maybe talk about this and ask about your experiences.
Ok I've written a lot and am now very tired, so I'm going to stop now as it's getting difficult. Thank you for commenting and giving me stuff to think about!