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I’ve found it! The pinnacle of 1970s “chic” in c/[email protected]

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Is there anything more disgusting than carpeted areas around a tub or toilet?

Like what the fuck were they thinking?

All of the other 70s and '80s trends - like the really dark wood paneling, ugly orange colors, that's just aesthetics. Maybe we'll go back to liking wood paneling at some point.

Carpet in a bathroom is not aesthetics or fashion It is fucking disgusting and unsanitary.

People of Lemmy who have either "reinvented themselves" or gone through a mid/quarter-life crisis, where did you start off and where did you end up? in c/[email protected]

[–] [email protected] 0 points 1 year ago (3 children)

Now that you're pretty wealthy has your family decided to become your best buddy now?

ADMIN: Please stop reporting OnlyFans models as spam just because they are OF models in c/[email protected]

[–] [email protected] 0 points 1 year ago

Fuck off - I'M HERE FOR PORN NOT ONLYFANS ADVERTISEMENTS.

Facebook turns over mother and daughter’s chat history to police resulting in abortion charges in c/[email protected]

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 year ago

Facebook doesn't use e2e.

There is a private chat e2e feature, but then your chats don't show up on PC.

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Should I just pay for it? (lemmy.world)

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I'm a hairy, small dick, morbidly obese, semi-virgin 35 year old guy.

Between my crippling social anxiety, zero self esteem, and OCD-ish fear that if I am near cum I'll get AIDS and die... I've only had a single sexual partner my entire life.

When I was 25 I was a 100% never been kissed virgin. I lost 75 lbs (315 to 240, currently 355), felt way better about myself, and sort of had a casual thing with a coworker where with lots of jerking and sucking, but no butt stuff because I was a scaredy cat. Then that guy moved away. I thought that he was the jumping off point to being normal, but I went back into my shell (and gained all my weight back).

I'm 35 now, certainly not getting any younger.

I finally have a real deal big boy job making adequate money.

I was thinking... Why don't I get my HPV vaccine, Hep A/C vaccine, PreP, and some Bluechew and just hire a prostitute so that I can get fucked by a human instead of a piece of plastic I sometimes stick up my butt while masturbating? I won't care what he thinks about my body because I'm literally paying him.

Then I thought - where do you even find a prostitute? There are escort sites, but they all seem to be in the city (I live in the suburbs about 25 miles away). What if I get caught and it's like the police? Do I need to rent a hotel room or have them come over my house? Can I just find a local, muscular, hot, college boy on Grindr and offer him like $500?

Maybe I should just lower my physical expectations and try to go on an actual date with someone in my age and league? How will I hide how incredibly anxious and awkward and inexperienced I am? I literally wouldn't fuck me.

Maybe I should just go to the 50+ year old guy on Grindr that's like 3000 ft away that has a bio that says he'll suck anybody. I wonder what kinds of STDs you can get from sucking dozens or hundreds of dicks?

Maybe I should get on Ozempic?

All that I know for sure is I want to do something.

When did you know you were a gaybro? in c/[email protected]

[–] [email protected] 0 points 1 year ago

When I was prepubescent I was very "jealous" of some boys. I remember a boy in 5th grade that had almost abs and I couldn't stop thinking about them or him for some reason.

I knew what gay was, but it was outside the range of possibilities. Gay people were evil and fruity and effeminate and molested kids and lived in San Francisco and weren't Christians. I'm a good Christian boy that's normal so I can't be gay. Although my classmates certainly thought I was gay and let me know all the time.

When I started masturbating, because I was a good boy, I'd look at PG-13 porn. I'd literally Google things like "girls in bikinis". This was in sixth grade.

Going into 7th grade... I started straight up having crushes on guys and even having sex dreams. We had to start changing in gym. I really really liked changing in gym. I even liked that sweaty smell. My "porn" started to become things like "Aaron Carter shirtless" or "boys wrestling bulges".

I would rationalize it in my mind - I just like the male form... It's just "hero worship" because those boys are so much hotter than me... It's just a phase... I haven't met the right girl yet.

Going into high school I sort of just accepted that I was gay.

That self-acceptance didn't really help. I was a 100% virgin until I was 24.

When I was 24 I was (and still am) really really depressed. I had gone from slightly chubby boy to morbidly obese man. I weighed 315.

There was a guy, my age, that I had a crush on at work and would think about constantly. He was pretty masculine and straight acting for lack of a better word but there were little hints here and there that he was gay and that made my crush that much more intense.

I felt so disgusted with my body that I never really approached him or tried to flirt or anything like that... But he unkowingly motivated me to lose 75 lb in 6 months. I'm 6'4 so 240 lb is still little chubby but it's in the realm of normal.

With new found confidence we started flirting through instant message and texts... Before you knew it we were in the backseat of my car making out and I was jerking him off. This started a sort of casual relationship with going out and jerking and sucking.

After a few months he got a new job and moved away. Sad face.

I thought that was going to be a jumping off point into being a normal person. Instead I went back in my shell. Shot back up to 360 lbs. Never tried an app or dating or anything in the 10 years since.