KyuubiNoKitsune

joined 2 years ago
[–] [email protected] 1 points 1 month ago

Thank you! I'll check it out

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 month ago

Thank you, I'll give it a try.

[–] [email protected] 1 points 1 month ago (1 children)
[–] [email protected] -2 points 1 month ago (1 children)
[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 month ago (5 children)

Because most websites are not English and every single time I want to translate a site, I have to use a drop down list to select English as the language to translate to.

[–] [email protected] 1 points 1 month ago (17 children)

I can't cope with the shitty translate on Firefox mobile, I live in a non English country and it's driving me insane

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 month ago

Favorite Pixels

[–] [email protected] 5 points 1 month ago (1 children)

Thabk you for the kind words and taking time to respond.

I've put a lot of effort into making friends over the last 11 years, I had a good community and a hobby that got me out and about with people all the time, unfortunately during the pandemic I moved to one of the most socially isolating countries there is, it's taken me 4 and a half years to make new friends but I have a bunch of friends again, but it just doesn't seem like it's enough, it never is. Even back home, with all I had going for me, I spent most of my time alone and felt this way.

The only thing I can think of is that they distract me from the emptiness, when they're there, the emptiness is subdued for a while.

I've been doing tons of introspection on why I feel this way and I don't know. I have BPD, which makes things difficult. I know that on a Saturday morning, if I haven't got plans with someone, I wake up feeling like there's no point in even waking up, my existence serves no purpose besides being there for my mom. I've lost interest in my hobbies because of a lifetime of never being able to afford what I need to complete anything, and anxiety and fear of failure has creeped into everything. I don't even play games anymore unless it's with someone.

Being alone feels terrifying and so so empty.

[–] [email protected] 6 points 1 month ago (5 children)

Yeah, but I have BPD, and know FPs are dangerous (still want one tho)

[–] [email protected] 9 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) (4 children)

Because I've been very isolated and alone all my life, including home schooling, when I'm alone there's this emptiness inside of me that never gets filled. I get so anxious when I'm alone and have slowly lost the ability to do things to distract myself from it.

Theres a difference between being lonely and alone, I used to be good at being alone but I've never been able to cope with being lonely. Life seems pointless without others in it.

[–] [email protected] 3 points 1 month ago

I really enjoy his videos, they're some music and some science, it's awesome

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