Asklemmy

Sunlight, food, my handsome partner, orgasms, music from my past, sleep, my cat, socializing while playing videogames, the knowledge that I'm improving my physical state, angry validation from other queers, peace and quiet, masturbation, porn, drugs, knowledge in general, good anime, the long healthy grass I can see from my window, drinking cool clean fresh water, the filthiest queer poly cnc abo smut i can find, the degoogle tech movement, the anti-facist movement in paris, luigi followers, star trek, ice cream, gw2, making music, carbonated beverages, getting better at things, seeing pictures of myself in threesomes, looking forwards to good things :) in the future, being lusted after, being loved, feeling love for others, trying to find my people, learning about myself, meditation, the fediverse and being able to speak relatively freely again, living in a liberal area, knowledge that I live in a liberal area and don't have to fear as much, cozy outfits, cuddling, piracy, helping make technology that I believe is ethically good, seeing people that also want to do good in the world and have a spine about it,

Yeah that's all I've got for now.. basically it circles around setting the good things in life, no matter how small, and also appreciating the few objectively nice things I do have in life, like a loving partner and my functioning senses.

Thunder, lightening, the sound of rain on my window.

The fact that this all is going to end sooner or later.

Getting together with my friends online a couple times a week to play R.E.P.O.. I've been going through a rough patch with my fiance recently and being able to get out of my head and sneak around haunted houses has been really helpful

Seeing Jason probably

Sobriety. 2 years 3 months since I've drank.

Still relearning some aspects of being an adult. Figuring out who I am. Picking up old hobbies again and trying new ones. So many things bring me joy nowadays where it used to only be alcohol that triggered the ol happy brain chemicals.

I'm in a much better place than I was a couple years ago when I was abusing alcohol as a coping mechanism.

The closest friend i made since moving abroad alone 2 years ago, changed their mind and they are not moving out of the city. Also, two of my favorite bands put out killer new albums that fit the eternal combo of coffee+tobacco really well

… not much.

My romantic life is painful and turbulent at best. My job is collapsing because of the tariffs. I owe too much on my car to keep it if I lose my job and it needs a new clutch anyways, which is about $3000 that I don’t have for the cheap one. Family is distant, cold, and unsupportive. My government is doing its best to make life (as a trans person) as painful as possible. Best friend died last year, my only other friend has just kinda fallen off the face of the earth. My hobbies are frustrating and unfulfilling. I have vivid nightmares nightly. My body is deteriorating to the point of near disability. I eat the same shitty $5 chicken sandwhich every day. Insurance won’t cover therapy and suicide seems more and more likely by the day.

My coffee was warm this morning though so, I guess I’ve got that going for me today.

Partner and kitties. When they (kitties) aren't screaming at me while I'm on the phone for work while wfh. So fucking rude. That's sarcasm. No one seems able to infer it anymore.

I'm a month away from completing my union electrician apprenticeship. It's been a lot of work, and there is plenty more to come. But after five years of working towards something, it'll be nice to reach a big milestone.

I’m very happy to be a land owner. Just a few months ago I bought some land and now live in an RV on the land. Tomorrow we drive about 7 hours round trip and get the last of our stuff from storage. So happy to not pay that rent anymore.

We have fresh air, beautiful views, and tons of space to work on projects, free electric from solar, and soon free water from rain. I can’t wait to start our garden soon, then it will be free groceries.

My cat has been extra cuddly lately. Earlier she slept in my arms using one as a pillow.

This instant? PBS Kids.

I'm really struggling but actually doing extremely well, all things considered. We've had a hostile takeover so even if I keep my job, it really feels like it's going to shit. My garage was broken into and my bikes nicked or damaged - that really sucks bug moreso because is my main hobby, exercise and coping mechanism :(

I'm hoping I can order a new mountain bike with a gearbox, so that'll be really exciting - but it's ages away at best.

The reality is my family love me and I'm successful, so in real terms, things are good - but I really need to work on my imposter syndrome and inner accuser!

Factorio!

Right now, I'm working a ton (72 hours per week) and my wife is working and going back to school, but every Tuesday is an entire day together. We just started playing Baldur's Gate 3 for the first time, and we look forward to it all damn week lol. We started like a month ago, but we're still only just now wrapping up the goblin camp. We both were already really familiar with 5e DnD, so a lot of the mechanics feel pretty intuitive to us. I have gripes with the camera (PS5 version) but overall it's a fantastic experience.

Before picking this up on sale, we were passing the controller back and forth through Astro bot. Also amazing! We rolled credits, and I'll probably aim for the platinum trophy at some point without her. There's truly not much left before we snag that, so she's not missing out.