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I personally struggle to see the difference between regular social interaction and manipulation. Do you have a sense on where that lies for you?

For example, due to being autistic, I struggle with making eye contact, but I recognise that most neurotypical people find that important for feeling connected to their conversation partner, so I often try to make eye contact during conversation. If I see someone has styled their hair in a way that shows they've put a lot of effort into it, I will often compliment them, even if I only feel neutral about it. I baked a cake for a friend when she finished her exams, because I know that physical gestures like this mean a lot to her (especially if it's a surprise); I wanted to make her happy, but it wasn't purely altruistic — ultimately, making the cake was an indirect way of making myself happier.

Another example is how, when speaking to someone struggling with something, my instinct is to go into problem solving mode and try to help. However, I've learned that some people much prefer space to be sad, and so saying things like "that sounds so frustrating" or "I can see why you're so angry, it's an unfair situation" lands better. It always feels weird and manipulative to do this, because the things I say feel so trite and meaningless. But it seems to really help, and I've had to just embrace the fact that people use different things to cope than I do. It does feel weird though, and if these aren't examples of bad manipulation, then I don't know where that line would be