cowboycrustation

Hey y'all,

I'm looking for more mods on this community. I haven't been super active because of school and I want to make sure there's other people looking out for this community in addition to myself.

Requirements:

-Must have a post history either with this community or related ones on this instance

-Must be trans

-Be transmasc (optional, but preferred)

I'm curious how many active transmascs there are on here and want to get to know people better. Introduce yourself in the comments below. You can include anything you want.

Questions if you can't think of any:

-Name

-Gender identity

-How long you've been transitioned/if you've transitioned

-Things that give you gender euphoria

-Where you're from

-What you're looking for in this community

-Random fun fact

Megathread of resources in case any of y'all need them. If you don't currently, save it in case you need it in the future.

I used to have an unhealthy relationship with food. I would constantly be feeling guilty about eating anything and was terrified of gaining any weight because it would make me look more feminine.

When I gain weight now I celebrate it. That means my fat gets to redistribute which means less effort that I have to put into passing which means that I can feel more free and comfortable in my own body.

I have never had so much trouble with TSA (american airport security) until today. My crotch got flagged by their scanners and I had to get a physical patdown (surprise, there was nothing bad). Then I forgot to empty my water bottle so I had to go through it all AGAIN and my crotch was once again flagged and I had to get a physical patdown AGAIN (surprise, nothing bad yet again).

Then my other bag gets flagged after going through the thing again despite my not adding anything to it. The TSA guy opens up my bag and I'm assuming saw my packer which I kept in there to put it back in after I went through security. He then giggles and calls multiple of his coworkers over to look at it. Luckily he didn't take it out. This whole damn time I'm right there. Ugh. Considering getting a lumpy cloth packer just to avoid this ever happening again.

I'm assuming that my crotch kept getting flagged because trans? I've never had this happen to me before.

These past couple of weeks I've felt such peace over my transition. I'm still not 100% in the place I want to be yet, but I know that those changes will come eventually.

It's done so much for my mental health to be in an environment that affirms me and to automatically be gendered correctly by most people. Being on testosterone has also done a lot for me because now I can actually bear to look at pictures of myself and think "oh yeah, that's me" and not some weird being that kinda resembles me but isn't.

I remember when I was younger and thought I was trans but was so afraid and second-guessing myself all of the time. I tried to convince myself that I'd regret it.

I don't know what the future will hold. But I'm so, so glad I transitioned. I finally feel whole.

My insurance denied covering my testosterone for the second time (UGH) and I can't afford the packets I usually take here ($120 even with goodrx) so I'm wondering if the gel pump would be cheaper. Anybody know?

I wanted to give an update on my progress:

My voice has gotten much better. There was a period of time where it was almost hard to speak and I could barely sing and thought my voice would sound like shit forever but I am happy to report that it has leveled out. It even sounds good and has a rich tone.

Losing my voice peremantly was my biggest fear with starting T. Took the risk and I am so glad that it didn't happen.

After moving states to a much more progressive one i feel like i get clocked all of the time here, whereas back home that rarely ever happened. When i pass by male strangers they dont do the nod thing to me. its very disconcerting. I get they'd by people who don't know me. I wish I could know what it was that makes people clock me like that. It feels like I'm not man enough here. Not being stealth feels like being naked. I don't like it.

Part of me wants to talk about my experiences as a trans man because it is a unique expierence that needs to be known, but at the same time I feel like as soon as I tell people I'm trans I automatically become Man Lite™ and a bunch of assumptions are made about me. And then I'm not man enough and am not treated as any other man would be treated. I wish T would do its magic already. I'm constantly feeling dysphoric these days.

i have a decent amount of acne after starting T. I wash my face every night with a cleanser scrub thing but still get lots of blackheads and pimples. Any tips at how to minimize this?

ive been ten months on T, got plenty of new hair everywhere except my face. havent even gotten one new hair there. all the men in my family have no trouble growing facial hair. why tf am i not getting a single one