ChihuahuaOfDoom

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[–] [email protected] 2 points 3 hours ago

Thank you, they have some beautiful options.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 3 hours ago

Thank you, Steven Singer seems reasonably priced as well.

 

Bonus points if they deal in lab grown gemstones.

I'm looking for a pair of sapphire studs and would prefer something lab grown if possible. There are a few local jewelers but the options are limited.

[–] [email protected] 0 points 1 day ago (16 children)
[–] [email protected] 0 points 1 day ago (9 children)
[–] [email protected] 0 points 1 day ago

I didn't think there was something worse than the little packs of raisins.

[–] [email protected] 3 points 2 days ago (1 children)

I'm sure nothing bad will come from this. Private equity has everyone's best interest in mind.

[–] [email protected] 3 points 5 days ago

2, an empty can of monster (just finished it) and a water bottle. Pretty standard for a night shift.

[–] [email protected] 43 points 5 days ago (3 children)

I only learned this a few weeks ago at 40 years old, now my hair is blue, both my ears are pierced and I'm a lot happier. I told my 19 year old daughter that "what will people think?" has been my mantra, now it's "fuck 'em"

[–] [email protected] 0 points 5 days ago

They went along with my plan to continue the meds I was previously taking (2.5 years ago) as long as I commit to working with my counselor. We'll check back in later to discuss medication changes.

[–] [email protected] 28 points 6 days ago* (last edited 6 days ago)

My former neighbors never truly appreciated the 4 cars in various states of disrepair taking up the majority of my driveway. I'm not a hoarder, I was just trying to keep our taxes reasonable.

[–] [email protected] 6 points 1 week ago
[–] [email protected] 8 points 1 week ago* (last edited 1 week ago)

Very unsuccessfully, I've been fighting this fight for over 30 years in and out of the care of doctors, luckily right now I have insurance so I'm just out copays and whatever fees the psychiatrist's office decides to send my way but it's worth it because I'm stable. Without professional help I pile on distractions, hobbies, overwork, volunteering, etc. Not a healthy coping strategy, I've tried to kill myself twice (the last time earned me a 4 day medically induced coma) and been put on psychiatric hold. I know you said poor people can't afford it but there are clinics where I live that deal almost exclusively with the homeless, if they can find a way to help them they may be able to help people in better financial positions who still can't afford treatment on their budget.

Edit: to address your question more productively, one of the things I've been doing on my own is writing to myself. I have been thinking about my situation and identifying behaviors that I need to change. When I go through my days I don't really consider my actions but when sit and really think about it I can see what I am doing that is toxic, then when I start to do it again it's easier to identify in the moment and attempt to alter whatever I would have previously done, e.g. when I am frustrated with something one of my kids has done I used to yell quite a lot, now I excuse myself to a quiet place, calm down a bit, and then go back to address their behavior. I haven't even seen my counselor since my last suicide attempt (less than 3 weeks ago) but I found that this has helped me immensely.

 

I enjoy shaving in the shower but I also like to keep my sideburns even. Can anyone recommend a good fog-free mirror that can be stuck up in the shower?

Thanks.

P.S. I posted here since I shave with a safety razor and you guys seem like a fairly active community.

 

I am still manic so please forgive me but I am on the comedown. I just wrote 3 pages in Word trying to tell my story but I couldn't express myself correctly so I'll boil it down. I've been manic for up to the last month and a half or was manic, crashed and am manic again. I tried to kill myself 13 days ago using (a fuckton of) pills. I very nearly succeeded. I am home and healing. Yesterday my sister was listening to me talk and broke the spell by just asking "have you considered you might be manic?". For the first time in 40 years I acknowledged that, yes, I was manic, it explained nearly everything very neatly and that meant I was actually bipolar. I am ready to heal.

While I've been out of the hospital, I was asked by my wife if this was her fault "do you not want to be with me?", we've been together more than half my life, "no, I'm sorry you thought that, I didn't want to be with me."

I've been unpacking why, trying to direct my energy to something productive instead of the constant masturbation and weed smoking I want to do.

(With the help of others) I've began to understand. When I was a kid I used to bleach and dye my hair, I would wear cut-offs, fishnets, Doc Martens, running around with green hair and a band tee (I'm a cis-man BTW). I got made fun of. I conformed for my own comfort, I eventually entered the service, and when I got out I continued masking for 17 years until I exploded.

I've always let through little bits of my true personality, when it was time for new sun glasses a few years ago I got the largest pair of aviators I could find in the store and made sure they were gold with the darkest tint available. I have an affinity for the loudest shoes I can find, I have a pair of brooks that are bright yellow, at work, people call them my tennis-ball sneakers. Once or twice a week I like to wear magenta scrubs (I get made fun of and the next day I come back in blue or gray), I used to parade around my house in skirts I picked up at the thrift-store and I "joked" with my wife that when we renew our vows, I get to wear the dress. (Did I mention I'm cis? I promise I am). But I've never owned it and let my freak flag fly, I've always protected my feelings, stuck in my own head "what will people think?" has been my mantra.

That nearly killed me. So I acknowledged who I really am, I shaved my wild, unkempt beard, I got my left ear piercing re-done and had my right ear done to match, I dyed my hair a lurid blue. I have not gotten any tattoos though I now know that, in the future when I have the money, I will. I don't currently have plans to cross dress again, that may have been a phase or not but if I want to in the future, guess who's going skirt shopping?

When I made my attempt I was a broken man in his early 40s with nothing I could see to live for, when I return to work, I will be a broken man in his early 40s with a future. When I go back it will be in my magenta scrubs, with my tennis-ball yellow shoes, my blue hair, and my piercings. Fuck what people think.

I'm (hopefully) done guarding my feelings, masking my true self, a peacock who wants to be the prettiest princess at the ball. I have a lot to work through with my counselor but I'm excited for that, I am now on a path of discovery and I'm excited to re-discover who I truly am.

And, for the record, when my wife and I renew our vows, I get to wear the dress.

 
 
 
 

Alright, normally when imbibing I'm listening to Tool, Floyd, Muse, Rush, etc. But let me tell you, The Very Best of Garth Brooks bangs, it's making me want to move. So, any other suggestions for music that might not be deep but hits different while having a good time?

 
 
 

I thought maybe I had accidentally put the screw in there myself but my only other box of this color I bought is 3-1/2"

 
 
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