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As in another post a few days ago, I had mentioned that my wife was kicking me out, now it's wanting me gone, but I can stay a while longer. Anyway, my health is on its way down again, as it does. A couple pains really sore, a few more highly exhausting, and the NSAID GERD is making me terribly dizzy. Oof!

anyhoo, starting to forget things which means she's getting a little more harsh. So far it's a joking kind of anger, so not too bad, but I'm afraid it's coming, O_o.

Yesterday I left a wrapper on her computer, and had set out a couple old computers for a nephew to pick up. Today it was leaving a curtain open and I don't remember moving the couch out a few inches either, o_O. Oof!

Ringing in my ear is pretty loud, too. Oh, so dizzy.

I did see the doctor a few days ago, but I don't have a good feeling about this one. At least she'll get a ct of my stomach area, so fingers crossed I can get something done with the dizziness, as that's worse than most of my pains at the moment.

Yeah, this dizziness is getting worse rather than better. Words starting to slur, and eyesight has a slight haze to it.

Ate the wrong thing. Breathing fairly difficult. Bringing up a lot of phlegm. Dizziness really really bad...so tired, too. Falling asleep while sitting at my desk. This dizzy spell sucks, also means I won't be able to go to the sanctuary to visit my kitties. ☹

Early the next morning. Dizziness still bad, pains still bad, and she already threw a piece of trash at me that I have no idea where it came from. Hell, I'm so sore.

My wife is definitely trying to drum up the courage to kick me out. There's no other reason for that kind of anger. Yeah, it's the same things she's always gotten mad at me for, but not like this. It's forced, not her normal anger. I may have a job to escape to, but holy hell, I am in so...much...pain, and I only sat here off and on trying to find other jobs. Oof! I am so worried these pains will make it impossible to juggle a job and survive. Contrary to what my family believes, these pains are not fake. I am not lying about them. They are horrible. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuch!

Erf! Sorry, this is just a rant. My mind is shot when these pains shoot up this high.

Hoo boy! She's been extra hateful and mean to me for the past few days, and the latest ammunition I've given her is not fixing the screen door (and/or screwing it up) to her liking. My chronic pains and the medicinally induced GERD (dizziness, extra pains, ringing in my ear) have not been helping, so what happens? She snaps at me about fixing the door, and so I do (which, yielding to her abuse doesn't exactly make anything better, 🙄 ), and I just found out a moment ago I screwed it up again. The damn main door handle will latch onto the screen door handle. I really really did not feel like working on it today, and I shouldn't have, pppp! Welp, I can expect to hear her scream in the morning when she leaves.

Again, if anyone has a business somewhere one or two states away from Kansas and is looking for a broken man (physically and mentally), I'm your guy, 🤣 🤣 🤣 Oh hell! Am glad that I fixed a lot of my stress a few years ago, else I'd be a complete wreck right now, yeesh!