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I always hate when people are sad but... I told this guy straight off the bat that I'm in a monogamous relationship. Had some excellent conversations with him about socialism. He kept trying to kiss me. He's a nice guy. He's mostly sober but on a bender because he can't deal with the world. Damn, do I get that. But fucking boundaries, man. I finally just up and left mid-conversation.

Week has been wobbly. I started Krishnamurti's Freedom from the Known which has been making me look at things differently so I'm in a kind of flux. I have also finally been making peace with my OCD and the severe ritualistic behaviour that compelled me to watch certain movies and shows and not other ones so I have been getting used to this new freedom of doing what I want haha

Having a method gave me assurance of not thinking about what to do but it also made me anticipate the whole course of my actions, I couldn't enjoy what I was doing in the moment so I had to stop doing that

Week is going okay. Gearing up for some fun TTRPG game sessions. Been trying to get past the 2nd act of Inscryption too (it's my 2nd time attempting). Love the game, but 2nd act is just such a drag compared to the 1st act. But I wanna complete it because I loved the 1st act so much. 2nd act brings it down for me a lot, but I still really respect the committment and decision to make such a drastic switch—it's why I love indie games, really.

WARNING - RANT: You ever have a best friend who, in your adult life, you realize you two just aren't on the same page anymore? It's been a difficult realization over the past 5 years or so that my best and I are just on 2 different sides of the political spectrum, and I'm sort of mourning that. What makes it worse is that sometimes, it feels like he doesn't care about how I might feel about something and just goes ahead and sends me racist, homophobic, transphobic, etc. content. It's very difficult to talk to him about it even though I know I should, but I just kind of ignore it or awkwardly play along.

It's doing alright. The heat is a drain on my spirit but it's cooling down in the next few days.

I hope to continue working on my big project but the finishing part is a bit demotivating. It's harder to finish something than beginning as they say.

I bit the bullet and ordered some shirts to wear while I'm working the market stand, and I'm hopeful that they make everything more cohesive. Logo is the front, catchphrase is the back:

I helped a friend out of a bind this week, and tomorrow I'll be helping another friend start to transplant his garden from his old house to his new one. Hopefully this heat dome doesn't ruin our efforts.

You inspired me to get some Naomi Klein books!! Excited to start reading them.

How's my week? It's alright. Gonna be a busy one with lots of activities, but it should be mostly fun.

Overall, things remain grim, but grim is an improvement over scared. Two generous Beeple teamed up to make sure I didn't lose all contact with the outside world.

I'm doing research into the best way to build an elevator pitch ... I don't go to networking events, but I do socialize with the burner community, and I realized that if I can't give a concise yet compelling reason to talk about freelancing, I may be missing out.

My week is going great. I'm very excited for the new Car Bomb EP.

Poorly but thanks for asking.