Asklemmy

Porn I’m afraid. Starting as a way to combat boredom and loneliness and anxiety as a preteen has turned in to a fifteen year long struggle and descent in to various medications and treatments that only impede my ability to develop healthy intimate relationships. Nofap, yorubrainonporn, abstaining, none of it has been effective for more than three weeks of it. Even being a pen tester when the compulsivity hits, it’s me versus my skills. And it’s always a losing demoralizing battle.

Nicotine by far. I quit doing most other drugs (except I still enjoy smoking weed), but I just cannot quit smoking. I’ve tried several times, and even if I go a month or two, I still can’t resist.

I think the reason for this is because I actually enjoy smoking quite a lot. All those other drugs eventually became more of a living hell than they were fun, so quitting them was easier.

Coffee/Monster Java. I really feel like I can't function without either. I can go without Monster Java for a few days, but the coffee is something I can't go without in it's absence.

Porn. While this has been gradually getting better with not stockpiling tons and tons of images and not stroking off as much. I do spend quite some time looking at porn and falling into old habits from time to time.

Food Portion Control. I have poor portion control, I really do. I've long stopped going to chinese buffets which is a great step in progress. But I've substituted it with going to BK time to time and grabbing things that are just as bad if eaten in a day's worth.

Not to claim equivalence or anything, but smartphone and the internet (ironic saying so here I know).

I’m a xennial … old enough to remember living without all this and the middle time where computers were either games or just useful tools.

For me, and I’m pretty sure many others, I’m pretty convinced it’s better that way.

I’d really like to get away from these things, at least just to relearn older habits.

Alcohol. Nicotine was a walk in the park.

Nicotine. I was able to quit for about three months last year. Going to give it another try tomorrow now that I've run out of patches.

Edit: Lasted 2 days. I'm back on the patches again

Excessive amounts of food. I have to eat, but cutting back to the amount I should be eating for my age and physical activity is so tough.

The cause is binge eating in my youth when I was extremely active but didn't eat three meals a day due to adhd absentmindedness. Frequently I would only have one or two meals a day, but eat two or more meals worth of calories at a time and burn it off in short order.

Now with family and a desk job with a scheduled lunchtime it is basically impossible to eat when I'm hungry instead of when it is 'time to eat' and portion control is a struggle. Quitting smoking required buying a house and quitting together with the wife, at least that had a cutoff date that I could say "I haven't smoked since moving in". Eating less is something I need to do every day!

Nicotine. No cigs anymore but never got off the vape.

Tobacco. 10,000%.

I smoked 3 packs a day for 25 years.

Then when vaping appeared on the scene, I switched to vaping - HEAVY vaping, loads of nicotine (you could buy 100 mg/ml nicotine base by the gallon for a few bucks back when it was still free). For 10 years.

Then finally I quit vaping. It's been 5 years.

I'm finally free from tobacco. And it's entirely thanks to vaping for me. I tried a million times and only vaping finally peeled me off tobacco (and then it took me 10 years to peel myself off vaping, but that was easier).

That's what it took and how long it took me to get off tobacco. I curse the everlasting shit out of the day I took my first drag on a cigarette...