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I didn't sleep well last night and ended up taking twice my ADHD meds.
I shouldn't have done that.
I have 3 days extra though so thankfully I won't run out before it's time to get a new batch.
Ouch. What kinda effect did it have ?
I'm on 40 mg Lisdexamfetamine. There was a day when I took it twice because my routine was messed up.
I ended up cleaning the house all day, make way too much food for the week, call my mom four times, while I was supposed to take it easy because I had a bad week and was near exhaustion already.
I'm on 60 mg of Lisdexamfetamine.
I took the first at 1:00 AM and the second one at 1:00 PM.
It... didn't seem to have much effect because I'm tired af.
So that seems to have countered whatever urge for productivity I had or have.
Is 1 am the time you usually take it at? I tend to try and keep it at the same hour. It has a small half life, but it doesn't mean it has no half life, I try to keep the concentration the same.
It's new to me, as I went undignosed for 40 years, so I'm still very wary of it.
Err, no, I don't take it usually at 1:00 AM. I usually take it at 7:00 or 8:00 AM, maybe 9:00 AM. What happened was that I woke up super-early and, well, I had to do something important and so I worked in the morning. Foolish of me, in all honesty. I should've never done that.
I'm glad you were able to get the Vyvanse after 40 years or so, though of course, it's fine to be wary of it.
Still, it's useful, and I acutely need it, tbh.
I have been diagnosed this year by a neuropsychologist with TSA, ADHD, Giftedness and Alexithymia. I'm a fortyish person who all his life though he was the most stupid people alive, yet have achieved a lot of stuff normal people won't even try.
I have a second degree black belt in Kyukushinkai, a first degree black belt in Tenshin Shōden Katori Shintō-ryū, which was delivered by Goro Hatakeyama. I have been challenged by my old teacher in Kyukushinkai to break a baseball bat, which I did, cement blocks, which I did and to do 25 000 kicks in a row, which I also did. I also did the 100 persons Kumite, which I stupidly did. I know how to brew beer at a very good level, having won a few competitions. I am a master code monkey - I have built the simulator for Janet Echelman, worked on both Unity and Unreal Engine, worked as a team lead in several big tech places, including the propaganda arm of Canada in quebec (radio-canada), worked at most known place in my province. I know how to cook at home chef level, being a modernist cook. I know about 65% of human history. I know a lot of comparative mythology. I have read a lot of philosophy, from plato to marx while reading and hating all those fake modern philosophers from the right. I have planned and done a 9 year TTRPG campaign in fate core were each played played 5 characters ( think post-humans ) I am taking care of two fully grown adult that are cognitively far worst than me ( my wife organization skill are abysmal and the anxiety makes her nearly non-functionnal ) and her brother who is a deeply autistic recovering alcoholic.
So, when I was burnt out, my doc put me on paxil and then effexor and a neurostimulator. Effexor is shit for me, It mess me up completely and so I am on the third month of weaning - I get brain zaps and shakes and tiredness - been like that for months now.
Now I understand I'm not that stupid, just chemically imbalanced.
So, with all that said, do you think the neurostim is good for me ? My doc is a tool so I have to rely on conversations with other persons who have experiences that looks like mine ...
I've heard mixed things about this. You may be suffering from trauma and need a medication for trauma and tiredness.
That being said, the Vyvanse definitely helps, and that's what everyone who takes it says that I know of.
But I'll say this, I feel tired a lot, not due to my ADHD or meds, but because I may have what's known as chronic fatigue and trauma (well, the trauma I have for sure). I have C-PTSD, which everyone should look up, and try to alleviate.
Ouch!
My wife has CPTSD from being abused as a child. I got her on Prazosin for her nightmare disorder. It's way better - but not perfect.
I should have trauma, my life story sucks and when I tell people what I went through they mostly disbeleive me.
I am from first nation descent in the apartheid state of canada and most "colonial" canadians don't understand what it means...
But all anti-depressant I tried just messed me up - made me feel and act very differently from what I usually am. I didn't like it.
So... How you holding up?