Egocide, killing ego.
Unfortunately I have depression and was debilitated by it (on and off and on again) for lack of better words about a year, its all quite sad if you let it be. BUT, for lack of better words my ego just has to die for me to move on to the next stage in life, and as a process it's actually going quite well which I am glad about. I've been working on this process for a while and I'm proud of myself. I'm trying and I've got a stupid grin on my face doing it. Couple really scary things I have to face soon, so I'll have to keep braving the storm but until then, its just egocide I have to worry about.
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