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Change up your routine. Find new hobbies. Meet new people. Learn new things. 2-6 weeks later, I feel once again that this is a complete waste of energy. Nothing I've ever done in my life has ever amounted to anything. I always return to this point. Just one more cycle, right? Just one more, haha? Just keep trying, right? This is all totally going to get better, right?

I don't

Thoughts?

As a kid I would get stung by nettles all the time. Like, how stupid was I?

Previous posted to Lemmy as an unidentified song. https://lemmy.world/post/14659357

Known in the Lostwave community as "Find the Switch": Find the Switch on WatZatSong

J'ai entendu les paroles suivantes dans la chanson Dorothy's Blues par Myriam Gendron

Derrière ma fenêtre
J’ai pu l’cœur à la fête
Je r’garde les papillons
Autour de ma maison

Mais je ne comprends pas cette phrase: «J’ai pu l’cœur à la fête». Quelqu'un pourrait l'expliquer s.v.p.?

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Image description of the meme: Two panels. First panel: Patrick from the TV show Spongebob Squarepants sits in the audience, raises his hand and asks "Is a chair an instrument?" Second panel: Squidward stands on stage. His head has been modified to be the face of Aphex Twin grinning. The face is the same as on the cover art of the album I Care Because You Do

I used to play games, but now I only think about the time I'm wasting. I used to like food, but now I only think about how many calories are in it. I'd rather watch a TV show I've seen a million times than watch anything new. I read about a book a month but the minutes before I pick up the page feel like procrastinating a shower when the hot water is busted. I did a lot of exercise this week but now I'm left wondering if it was really worth the oxygen.

It.. didn't used to be like this. I'd be happy just going to school, playing games until way too late, talking to my online friends and doing the same thing the next day. Maybe it's because back then I had graduation in mind as a long term objective. But now, the only certainty left for me is the inevitable fate of every living creature. I'm lonely. At school you're forced to meet the same 30-100 people every day, but I've never been worth going out of anyone's way. I have almost no social contacts that charge my battery rather than deplete it.

I feel like I should keep trying new things. But honestly, all that's good in my life was given to me by chance (or a deity if you believe in one). Every time I have actively tried to better things it either changed nothing or made things worse. I'm so tired.

Has anyone "been there" and turned the ship around?

A hiker in the Austrian Alps died when a herd of cows charged her, while her two daughters survived with injuries [...]. The woman was on a hike with her two daughters [...] and two small dogs yesterday [...] in the Salzburg region when the cow herd charged [...]. “It is still not clear what happened,” a police spokesman [said].