6daemonbag

It seems like a lot of work maintaining healthy poly relationships. I don't think I'd be able to manage it, though I have a few friends who apparently are very happy doing their thing

Dang I wish I knew that at the time. I had to run it many times before I was satisfied that my history was properly edited before deleting everything

I can't speak to the article that you've posted several times due to the paywall, but I can speak to the language and the antagonistic attitude they actually used during the entire debacle. Placing explicit blame on third party apps like Apollo, Sync, Boost, etc.- that was the argument used. It doesn't matter what the real reason was. They were publicly placing blame on small fish instead of the AI monster that was stealing all of their content and bandwidth

IIRC that was not the case. They very publicly blamed 3rd party apps, which was both disingenuous and not transparent.

Never heard of BBQ/mayo but I'm there.

The embarrassment of getting pummeled to some sort of electric accordion solo really sells it. Is it an accordion? I haven't listened to it in 20 years

I've been told to go back to my country. Which is Hawai'i haha

That left-align is just 🤌

What does -ar 3:2 and --niji 6 mean?

I just finished The Dark Forest and I now know why saving the ship wouldn't have worked under any circumstance

Let me just say, dude, that you are not alone. There are a lot of people who feel this struggle and there is no simple answer to this problem. Because it is societal. You probably already know this but I want to start off with that.

I can see every little thing you think is threatening to others and it's all there. You're black. You're a man. You're a black man. You have strong features. You wear clothes. And you exist.

That shouldn't be your problem, but more than a century of propaganda has made it so. Me and everyone else has been conditioned to fear you.

With all that said, I can echo some other comments. Take the advice on fashionable clothing. Aside from the other positives, it feels good to look good. You've saved up for surgery, spend it on that instead. Find a fashionable friend and get advice. There are multiple ways to achieve it without feeling untrue to yourself.

Learn to smile as your opener. To others and to yourself.

Most importantly, spend that money you saved on therapy. It isn't there to fix you. It's there to help give you the tools to cope with the reality of things. It isn't bullshit. No amount of aesthetic adjustments will fix what's going on in your head and your heart.

Candidly, you seem like you're not in a good fucking way. Get help. Peace.

Ha! I switched to perfectly round glasses for completely unrelated reasons and certain demographics who tended to be threatened by my complexion almost stopped entirely. That was a funny quirk of a minor style change.

But also I'm not a big dude. I just happen to fit a description.