Work sent me home after having a spew in their toilet lol. Had an interesting convo with my DiDi driver: he's from Delhi, and his family owned a "massage" shop that they wanted him to run. Instead he moved here and is happy with his job, his girlfriend, and his life. He spoke about the main difference between India and Aus is that there is more freedom to do what you want to here. Made me feel quite lucky and humble to be born here, and not have a family like that. And I love that he is happy here.

Anyway, I'm home now, dying on the couch slowly but surely lol

Feeling really low today. The last month has been really tough, leaving Venice, the first city where I made great friends and felt like I belonged. Then, right before Christmas, I lost my beloved Nonna. I have been so busy I have just been pushing through and not thinking about it, but I feel it today. At least the PhD work today is funnish finishing off the speech and PowerPoint for a conference next week, I always enjoy making powerpoints.

who wants some SOURRRRR GUMMY WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORMS

Think I need to find a new psych, but having been rejected by one before 15 years ago, I don’t want to put myself up for that hurt again. Yeah I’m complex. (ASD, cptsd from childhood, anxiety etc). Seems too hard to get help…,

That'll teach me to check my roster first thing - I got dressed for work, opened the app and realised that I don't have any clients today - my normal Tuesday morning is now Wednesday, at least for this week.
At least when I phoned the office to double check the receptionist and I had a good laugh together.

Trying to stay positive today...!

1. My makeup is awesome today.
2. My dog is hella cute.
3. The energy drink I've treated myself to is delicious.

Not even 9 am and already three separate people got on my nerves. Haven't even left the house yet.

Ground my teeth again but forcing myself to go to work. I must remember how grateful I am to be gainfully employed, I just wish my head and jaw didn't hurt so damn much. Having a little weep at the train station, ugh.

Breakfast 🍏🍎🍐🍊🍋🍈🫐🍓🍇🍉🍌🍒🍑🥭🍍🥥🥦🥑🫛🍆🍅🥝🥬🥒🌽🥕🥐🍠🫚🥔🧅🥯🍞🥖🥨🧀🧇🥞🧈🍳🥚🥓🥩🍗🍖🫓🍕🍟🍔🌭🥙🧆🌮🌯🥗🍲🍜🍝🥘🍛🍣🍱🥟🦪🍥🍘🍚🍙🐠🍤🪼🦀🐙 🍗🥮🍢🍡🍧🍰🧁🥧🍦🍨🎂🍮🍭🍬🍫🥜🌰🍪🍿🍯🥛☕️🍵🍺🍶🥤🧋🧃🥂🍷🥃🍸🍹🧉🔋

Apologies. Chef overslept.

Me: * hunts for glasses *
Sams: * screams for snuggles *
Me: Dammit, cat, I am trying to find my fucking glasses.
Sams: * wanders over and nonchalantly pokes them *
Me: * snuggles Sammi within an inch of her life *

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Ugh. I showered before bed but was so exhausted I accidentally fell asleep with wet hair. Rewashed it, gave it a rinse of apple cider vinegar and dried it right away with the hairdryer - all of which should hopefully avoid any resulting scalp issues.

I'm still tired. Really overdid it yesterday around the house