Ask Lemmygrad

You need to start thinking in materialist categories. "Order" in society does not exist as a universal principle, it is always the byproduct of concrete interests with concrete means to enforce them, and the fundamental nature of the social order depends on and changes with what these interests are. Once you know this, you can understand the dialectics of society and convince yourself that only the lower class can and must be the motor for fundamental social change. The role of protest is not to create further "order", but to articulate the interests of the lower class and sections within it, to mend its internal divisions, and to precipitate the changes its interests necessitate.

You sound like a Gnostic that believes that they are having a personal battle with the Demiurge. There are the rules of "spirit" also known as common sense that confine what nature can be. However the rules of matter often discover that the world is stranger than our cultural ancestors presumed and we should update our understanding accordingly. A more accurate understanding helps one understand why something exists. Knowing why something exists can tell you how to make something not exist. This applies to living things, people, societal concepts and all other things. To give up on the concept of understanding is to relinquish one's power to those that want to keep power. It is the common sense of the spirit that fights understanding that truly limits ones power and freedom more than the limits of matter.