dogerwaul

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[–] [email protected] 3 points 1 day ago (2 children)

why the hell would anyone willingly live in Florida

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 day ago

the constitution doesn’t matter anymore. i mean, honestly, i think the document is irrelevant and should be disregarded in favor of genuine progress, but members of the oligarchy are ignoring these laws to supplement their own terrible version of reality. they are making their own precedents at the expense of the American people. Trump has shown the country that if someone is powerful enough they can do whatever the fuck they want with the influence they’ve accrued.

[–] [email protected] 4 points 1 day ago* (last edited 1 day ago)

i’ve been waiting for this strain of bird flu to reach human-to-human transmission. once that happens we are truly fucked. we didn’t handle COVID and the pandemic is still ongoing. people complained about “shut downs” in the US and there was no such thing lol. name a single state that shut down. name a small town! nobody was prevented from traveling, there were merely recommendations and advisories. anyway, bird flu is gonna be bad. i’m very worried.

[–] [email protected] 0 points 1 day ago* (last edited 1 day ago) (1 children)

thank you for commiserating. i am sorry you can relate. it seems a lot of us can. yes, budgeting is our next step actually. we are doing it together with my first paycheck.

edit: i already posted on mutualaid a few days ago lol i would feel scummy and abusive if i posted again so soon, but i appreciate the tip

[–] [email protected] 0 points 1 day ago (2 children)

i appreciate your encouragement to rest but i simply cannot. i am the one with money, i have a job now and need to play the game once again. nobody is allowing me to “rest,” it’s all about doing what is necessary to live and not be homeless or without medication. i can’t even handle that. my phone and my car are gone. who knows when i’ll be able to afford payments for either.

 

i couldn't find a community geared towards venting or posting about depression, so i'm coming here to empty my head. sorry in advance if this doesn't fit the comm well. if you're sensitive to depression i'd avoid my post tbh.

it took me two months to find a job since my last one ended in October. my bills became unmanageable during that time and my phone was shut off. yesterday, on my first day of work, my car was repossessed after i got home. i live with my partner and his mother and they fought about me the other day. i came home early today from work and got into a yelling match with my partner over something stupid. we have been together for 13 years. we know there will be bad and good times, but lately it's been nothing but bad, and i am the cause of a good percentage of it.

i have several mental illnesses that make it difficult for me to maintain support for myself. i am medicated and have been in and out of therapy. i've even been hospitalized for suicidal ideation. i am trying, i really am. i don't know how to balance the love i feel for my partner and "being responsible" financially. we are supposed to focus on expenses and bills first, but i cannot simply exist to work. that isn't life, that isn't living, i'd rather be dead. i will only get one life to live and i am spending it concerned about money and successfully navigating a capitalist hellhole. yes, sometimes i buy my boyfriend and i shit we don't need, but it's because we get to experience each other genuinely when we come together and do or use whatever i bought for us. i am creating memories, i am creating happiness.. but yes, it is at the expense of money and "good" decision making. poor people are allowed to enjoy life too.

but.. i don't know if my boyfriend sees it that way. he's told me that he cares more about being financially stable and secure, but the smile on his face when i get him something he wanted or i pick up some weed for us to relax together and smoke tells me that he needs a release too. he feels pressured to conform to the world around him, but he is also extremely disgusted by our world in much the same way i am.

idk. i have felt like a leech and a failure my whole life, and now i have lost my phone and my car, and have no money until my first check. i spent what i had on gas for a car that was taken from me lol. now i'm sitting here broke and without much of anything, and my boyfriend and his mother seem to think poor of me as of late.

i'm tried. i really am exhausted. if i don't wake up tomorrow the world would be doing me a favor. i have begged to die in my sleep before only to unfortunately wake up and be forced to exist yet again. maybe tonight will be different.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 3 days ago

sounds very interesting. i loved ISTTG. excited for whatever else she does.

[–] [email protected] 3 points 3 days ago (1 children)

i have ADHD and i’m certain there’s a connection.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 3 days ago (3 children)

if anything i smarten up. text allows me to organize my thoughts and analyze my word choices. i can say much more and provide more detail over text. when i talk i feel stupid lol.

[–] [email protected] 24 points 4 days ago (3 children)

just make Israel the 51st state already

[–] [email protected] 5 points 5 days ago

i worry our species is irreversibly doomed. honestly, i feel certain we are yet i refuse to act as though i believe it. if i give in and give up and sit back and wait for the worst to come then i won’t be able to say “i tried” to whichever younger generation asks the rest of us why we did nothing and let the human race go extinct. climate change will likely bring about the end but any number of things could happen before then, and capitalism will have spearheaded all of them.

[–] [email protected] 0 points 6 days ago

wow lol. this doesn’t surprise me at all. i had a gut feeling about Honey but couldn’t have guessed it was this insane.

[–] [email protected] 0 points 6 days ago

i would reject a communist group with that kind of mindset. we are in no position to be so focused on strict application of "what communism really is" at the expense of educating others against capitalism. we need to help deprogram and depropagandize the masses. especially in America, the proletariat are largely ignorant and kept that way. someone who is willing to apply leftist politics to their personal belief system should be seen as a potential ally. encourage those people to continue to think and expand their knowledge. class consciousness is not going to form if we means test the collective.

 

we had an electronic toy bucket with a clown nose that shot its own balls out of its mouth and the game was you’d gather them up from around the room and shove them back in its stupid bucket head and it would suck its balls up and throw ‘em back out and you’d repeat that and pretend it was fun for more than five minutes.

what do you think made us millennials the way we are? tbh i think zoomers are cool. they’re doing alright. they’re like my younger sibling. we were raised by the same bullshit.

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