Thalestr

A little close up macro scene I put together in Blender! I usually do expansive vistas or interiors so this was a nice change of pace for me.

My latest completed project in Blender. We haven't had any snow here yet so I figured I'd make some digital snow instead. It's been a while since I made a snowy scene so it was nice to get back into that again. Also gave me the chance to learn and practice some new terrain tools I got and had been meaning to take for a spin.

Thank you for looking!!

Image description: A long, curved and slightly damaged boardwalk covered in snow and leaf and branch debris flanked on either side by snowy pine trees. A large snowy mountain looms in the foggy distance and is lit by sunlight coming through the clouds of an overcast day.

Apologies for the clickbaity title or for the messy wording to follow. I’m not great at articulating myself.

I’ve been finding myself posting less and less on Beehaw lately and that my enthusiasm for it is fading, and I have been trying to figure out why I personally have felt this way. Beehaw is, in theory, a great community with a solid foundation built on a good code of conduct and mission statement. This is the place that many of us wanted to find, especially those of us who long for the days of webforums and wanted that sense of community that Reddit never really provided.

I think I have figured out why now. Simply put: The vast majority of content posted to Beehaw is news. Much of that news ranges from mostly negative to downright doomscrolling doomerism. There is very little community engagement or discussion going on, just page after page of news. I don’t follow most news-heavy communities, so if I change my sorting then it will filter out some of it but then the posts I see are days to even weeks old. If I sort by Local - New then it is just page after page of news, most of it with very few or zero comments. And this is with several news-centric communities (like US news) already blocked.

Maybe this is just me or maybe some of you feel the same way, I’m not sure. Or maybe it’s just that this Reddit-styled UI doesn’t lend itself well to other types of engagement; I don’t know. But I was hoping to find more here than just another news aggregator. I was hoping Beehaw would be a more positive, uplifting, inclusive place.

Title not directed at anyone in particular, but rather me venting in general.

As a person with ASD, I often struggle with trying to keep up with and understanding the world around me, especially other people. I frequently need to ask people to repeat what they're saying or ask them to expand or clarify on what they've said so I can understand it better. I also sometimes don't remember things properly or my memory just poops out entirely and I don't remember something at all.

And time and time again all of this gets met with passive-aggression and lack of patience. Snippy remarks, sighs, scoffs, etc are all too common and it makes me anxious and afraid to converse with people, especially those that I know have less patience for me than others.

Some examples of things that really hit hard for me are things like: "I already told you," "Like I said...." "Didn't you get it?" "Wasn't that clear?" "Don't you remember?"

Stuff like that just cuts deep when all you were doing was trying your best to fit in the conversation. So if any neurotypical people are reading this then please try your best to have patience for people that might not be getting what you're saying right away. Some of us need a bit more time and energy to process things.