Cyanide and Happiness

Almost 2 years ago, to the day, pretty much, I was in the darkest places I've even been in mentally, thinking about stuff daily that remembering now.. is awful.

Now? Now it's so much better. I worked like hell to get myself from that hole, to slowly build back my confidence, to be an adult, and it's starting to pay off.

What I am trying to say is that even in our darkest moments, there always exits a brighter day. There is always a tomorrow, next week, next month or next year.

If you feel lost or that there is no hope, I understand because I've been there. If anyone reading this feels that, do PM me if you want to. I'll gladly talk to you. I am no psychologist or something, but I guess a conversation doesn't hurt.

Even when I'm feeling miserable, I look back at that point of my life a year or two later and it seems absolutely magical.

In the moment I was living it, there were magical moments interspersed with long debilitating periods of nothingness which were the hard parts.

When we look back in retrospect, we remember the high points. The magical moments. we tend to forget the long boring dull moments or excruciating pain and effort required to earn the magical moments.

And that's why we romanticize the past.

Drink less alcohol and smoke less pot.

Start a family, or don't, who cares. Play video games for the rest of your life as you coast by.

Nothing really matters in reality except for the things you make matter.

Also go see the doctor. You're depressed and probably need meds and healthy coping mechanisms if you don't know what to do.

Is definitely hasn't gotten worse for me. I was a shy and anxious child.

Worst day of your life, so far

It gets worse, but can also get better or at the very least have some bright spots. Try not to give up hope , I know it’s easy to because I catch myself doing it all the time

I don’t know man, mine just keeps getting better. I have a dog now. Shit’s amazing.