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Cyanide and Happiness
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Hello fellow Cyanide and Happiness fans!
About this community and how I post the comics… Many moons ago, I would ask my Dad to save the newspaper for me everyday so I could read my favorite comic strips. Of course these days you can read your favorite comics online instead of a newspaper, but I love the nostalgia of reading the daily comics. Anyway, one of my favorite current comics is Cyanide and Happiness and I will be posting the daily release from their website (https://explosm.net/) and a an extra or two randoms.
Cyanide & Happiness (C&H) is a webcomic created by Rob DenBleyker, Kris Wilson, Dave McElfatrick and Matt Melvin. The comic has been running since 2005 and is published on the website explosm.net along with animated shorts in the same style. Matt Melvin left C&H in 2014, and several other people have contributed to the comic and to the animated shorts… Read more: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cyanide_%26_Happiness
Hope you enjoy and feel free to contribute to the community with art, media, cool stuff about the authors, tattoos, toys and anything else, as long it’s Cyanide and Happiness related!
Ps. Sub to all my comic strip communities…
Bloom County [email protected] https://lemm.ee/c/bloomcounty
Calvin and Hobbes [email protected] https://lemmy.world/c/calvinandhobbes
Cyanide and Happiness !cyanideandhappiness https://lemm.ee/c/cyanideandhappiness
Garfield [email protected] https://lemmy.world/c/garfield
The Far Side [email protected] https://lemmy.world/c/[email protected]
Fine print: All comics I post are freely available online. In no way am I claiming ownership, copyright or anything else. This is a not for profit community, we just want to enjoy our comics, thank you.
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Thanks for your kind words.
It's... I can and am choosing not to kill myself. I can't choose to not want to kill myself. I think it's kind of inevitable though, it'll only take one time of things being bad enough for me to not care about hurting those who care about me. More or less just trying to give myself as much time as possible and enjoy what I can while I can.
I don't really have any hope for the future. It's become incredibly clear to me over the past few months that while I can feel better sometimes, nothing actually improves. Things don't improve unless you actively try to improve them, and having tried and failed spectacularly it's apparent that I even if I kept trying, it would be ineffective, and I just can't care enough to keep trying.
I really don't want to keep living, but I choose to anyways, at least until things I get bad I can't choose anymore. I won't hurt my friends and family and I know how I see things and how I feel are different from the reality of my situation. Just eventually, those won't be enough anymore.
Agree with everything here. Something people don't really understand is when you're at that point of depression, suicide doesn't seem like a big deal anymore. It's like, how much thought or importance do you put on choosing what color shirt you wear for the day? You don't spend hours agonizing over it or thinking about it, you just wake up and look in your dresser and are like "well I guess it's red today" and it's the same for "well I guess it's suicide today". I've been there an uncomfortable amount of time. It's a very scary place to be. You have to really actively fight against it.
And when you no longer enjoy anything, you can't dive into something to distract yourself. When your personal connections no longer matter you can't go to anyone to feel warm and fuzzy inside. You're just alone and lost in the darkness. What has helped me when I've been in that spot is to find and reach out to other people who've been in the same spot and understand. The feeling and the whole experience is so hard to put into words to people who haven't been through it.
At least for me, personally. I found comfort in people who were going through similar or have been through similar in the past and could ACTUALLY understand. But you do need to find some kind of anchor to keep you here, whatever that may be. It's hard. It's probably one of the hardest things you'll ever do. But I promise it's worth it. If anyone out there needs someone like that to talk to my inbox is open.