Ask Lemmygrad

I also struggle to self read. If you have a Marxist reading group, it would potentially be helpful. If there aren't any in your area, the Marx Madness podcast is pretty solid (Season 1 is a bit rough as they were learning how to podcast, Season 2 and onwards really improves).

hmm, well that is okay, i guess the most important thing rn is to help out with the palestine cause rn so joining a local group maybe? but there are podcasts out there that do some funny talkings with a socialist leaning that you might like?

You are human. You can learn. :)

It frees you to choose which leader to follow.

It's less about economics than it is about history, about understanding and communicating the problems of the people close to you. Of being organised in a party and working collectively.

It's not the easy way out, but it's the meaningful way out. Watch the videos, follow the left wing you tubers, that's a reasonable start. That's what got me intrigued. And now I'm here. :)