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The Warriors have been doing really well since the Jimmy trade. They're 9-2. That's very, very good.

Here's the thing: in that stretch of games, they faced exactly 0 (zero) actual contenders. By actual contenders, I mean OKC, the Nuggets, Boston, and Cleveland. The closest things to a contender they faced were the Mavs, the Knicks, and the Bucks, but the Bucks didn't have Giannis, they went 1-1 against the Mavs without AD and they're cooked regardless, and well the Knicks were actually good and got blown out. That is to say, I'm unconvinced.

You see people talking about how Steph's been unleashed by Jimmy, which might be fair


he has been playing really well, regardless of whether that can be attributed to Jimmy or not


but misses the point, at least in part. Has he been playing well against fuckass OKC? Because, quite frankly, if they can't beat Shai, it doesn't matter. It just doesn't matter.

Steph needs another ring, Jimmy needs a ring. Anything outside of a championship is a failure for this season. Time is running out, and I just don't see this team performing at a high enough level to get there. I say this with a pained chest, of course, but they just aren't good enough.

I know, I know, shocker. Nobody's really walking around saying that the Warriors have a shot at the big-one, so it's not like I'm providing revolutionary analysis here, but it does frustrate me to watch this.


I'd also like to talk about NBA nicknames. I've always thought nicknames are one of the coolest aspect of NBA fandom; the joker, king James, chef Curry... These are iconic. They make watching the games that much more fun. Recently, the NBA has underwent a bit of a nickname renaissance, so to speak, seemingly on the back of "The Anomaly," referring to Jayson Tatum. It's not a bad nickname, as far as nicknames go, but it doesn't fit at all. It's a brilliant example of undeserved glazing, if anything. However, people have taken it in stride and started developing nicknames for other, sometimes mostly irrelevant NBA players.

My favourite ones so far are "The Trolley Problem" for Santi Aldama, and "The Ad Hominem Fallacy" for Jalen Green. I've tried looking it up, but I have no idea why Jalen got stuck with that, which makes it even funnier. They're so ridiculous, like Santi's, but mostly they're comprehensible. The idea is that Aldama presents a moral dilemma to the defender. Not bad, not bad... But I think that the sheer absurdity of a nickname as incomprehensible, nigh undecipherable, as Jalen Green's pushes it over the top of great into legendary status.

I saw a comment on a TikTok where the nickname "The Butcher" for Draymond Green was advanced. It pointed out how the Warriors have a chef, a butcher, and a butler. That's just perfect.

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I think it's great that the internet has connected so many people. I love that I'm able to talk to someone on the other side of the world with a very different culture, language, and just overall life experience. I love that I can learn so much; so many different skills are just... Taught. For free. Online. It's really insane, when you think about it.

However, I hate how huge the internet feels, sometimes.

And I love how small it can feel, as well.

I follow this rather popular creator on TikTok called Mei. She does tinned fish reviews. It's hard for me to put into words how much I love her videos, but let it be known that I do love them very much. She has a website too: https://www.daywithmei.com/, consider checking her out. She's great.

Relatively recently (about a week ago), she posted a video in which she wore a super cute shirt. Pic related.

Mei with the cute shirt.

I don't know where she got it, but I want it!

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It's so frustrating to want to put my feelings into words and failing. I feel so ignorant all the time, like I don't know enough to speak on any issue. When I do speak, I feel like I always miss something, some detail of the bigger picture, and it's always pointed out to me.

That's a good thing, I suppose. To be able to speak your mind and be corrected and helped.

I'm a patriot, I think, but I'm not a nationalist. I love my country because it's given me so much: a good education, good health services, good public transport... I love our language and our culture, our music both old and new, I love our rivers and the ocean that graces our shores, our forests, our food and our water... I saw a TikTok a few days ago, actually where a Portuguese person talked about how, whenever they travel abroad, they're flabbergasted by how terrible foreign water is. I've traveled all over Europe and can vouch for that. Foreign water sucks, it's crazy. Portuguese tap water is better than Dutch bottled water. I love our people too, all of them.

However, whenever I express this, I feel like I'm crazy. It's like there's only two kinds of people in this country: those that hate everything about it, and nationalist xenophobes. The people that see the good points of our country are not the ones that hate everything about it, by the way... And I really don't want to be associated with the xenophobes.

Partially, I'm scared that I'll become like them. I don't want to be hateful. It really does seem like the fascistic side of the deal really does have a monopoly on patriotism, though. Not patriotism, I suppose, it really is nationalism, but I find that that's a difference that only matters to the people that already know it, and that's not the everyman.

I saw this other TikTok about how the right has a narrative, and even if the narrative doesn't make sense, it's more than what the left has, so people flock to it in times of need. The right wins because the left fails to convince... And I find that this might be a big issue. I see people talk about how there's a big focus on the bad sides of our history---of which there are many---instead of the good sides. I don't know... I feel like that's a talking point, but if it resonates, then it matters, I feel like. I mean, I know of our country's history, and I still love it. I want to make our country better, to improve it, but it seems that the narrative that appeals to this mysterious time from before when we swam in gold coins like uncle scrooge is what people care about. And of course, it's all the browns in our midst. It's very frustrating...

I don't know. I feel like what I'm saying doesn't make that much sense, but I'm kinda hoping that getting it out might help me wring out some meaning out of this digital rag drenched by my stream-of-consciousness.


I find it really frustrating that Lemmy doesn't let you link posts or comments natively. You can like a comm with ! like in [email protected], you can link a user with @ like @[email protected], but you can't link a post or a comment. I've looked into it a little, and I get why it's not possible, but it sucks!

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It really frustrates me when people complain about action. I know that statement is so vague as to be meaningless, so please allow me to elaborate.

I'm seeing quite a few people post on Reddit about this new-ish movement of buying from the EU, which has actually also been catching some wind here on Lemmy on comms such as [email protected], namely on the Portuguese financial literacy subreddit. Now, whether or not that kind of thing has a place in a financial literacy sub is debatable, but that's besides the point, as that's not the chief complaint I see from commenters.

Instead, they complain that this idea of buying from EU is either useless, not enough, or virtue-signaling.

I find that very upsetting.

I'm not sure I'm totally on-board with the idea, but I do at least think it's a good thing overall to support local or regional businesses, it's good to support small businesses working on better, innovative, high-quality products and services, rather than the slop that the established giants take for granted consumers will eat up. It's not even a point of morality, it's actual practicality; you should aim to buy the best products, and capitalist monopolies are incompatible with quality service, so you shouldn't support monopolies.

Also, do small acts not count anymore? That one really irks me. I saw someone complain that this was all ridiculous because why are we worried about this instead of being worried about the housing market? What? That is such a monstrously STUPID thing to say that I was genuinely taken aback upon reading it. First of all, who said they're not also talking about those issues? But even if they weren't, so what?! Do smaller issues not matter? Is there some sort of restriction on the significance of issues that get airtime in a public forum?! Ridiculous.

Of course, people that wage these complaints don't talk about the "real issues" either, unless when they're trying to tear down those bringing up the "meaningless issues." Is this what they call reactionary politics? It's disgusting.

The worst part, maybe, is that they call the movement reactionary hypocrisy! I mean, on a surface level, everything can be said to be a reaction to something else, I suppose. However, I think there's a difference between being proactive and idle push-back. If the US starts on a rampage of poisonous international relations policy, then aren't the people affected entitled to a reaction? Are people not entitled to decide where their money goes?! Are they not entitled to decide to financially benefit this or that nation, that or the other company, in whichever way?! How is that hypocrisy? It's true the world is highly interconnected, it's hard, if not nigh-impossible, to completely disconnect from the US, but how is it hypocrisy to clamor for that sort of decoupling, regardless of one continues to use this or that service? Things aren't black or white, there's plenty of grey, there's levels to this, things don't change overnight. This genuinely bothers me.

On my part, I think I'll stick with my values of value-buying. Trying to get the most bang for my buck, the most quality. That will include a lot of European products, I think, but also American and other manufacturing, though it will mostly include second-hand and refurbished stuff.

Still, this rather intense hate I see some people react with is just... Beyond me. Whenever I see people react so strongly, I simply can't help but think that I might be missing something. There might be some aspect of this that I'm so terribly unaware of that I say the stupidest things.

The more I think about it, however, the more I think that I'm right. We really do benefit from supporting small businesses, buying second-hand, decoupling from dominating monopolies, and so on.

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I love the way the setting sun casts enormous shadows onto the trees.

The trees.

The winter time has rendered some of the foliage that surrounds me into skeletons; thin and lanky arms reach to the sky as if in prayer, uncountable off-shoots branch out in seemingly inscrutable patterns. The trees lie in wait, dancing softly in the wind, waving the setting sun good-bye.

A shadow crawls across the football field and the houses and the roads. The cars run in and out of the darkness, none the wiser. Soon, the dark reflection cast by my apartment complex will reach the clustered trunks. Then, it'll continue its incessant journey, until it covers every branch, dead or alive, indiscriminate as it is.

Even having lost their leaves, they pray. Even as they lose their light, they pray. The sky grows darker as the sun is snuffed out by time, and the trees still pray.

They look desperate. Underfed, famished. I wonder if each tree prays for something different, or if their connected roots, winding and touching and hugging and crushing each other, I wonder if their mouths that melt into one all whisper the same hymns and the same obsessed desires. A thousand, maybe a million tiny fingers reaching to the heavens all singing the same song, begging for life, and still the shadows cover everything.

They have no eyes of course. Even if they had had them, once, I'm sure they would've already gone blind from staring up.

Their steps are perfectly choreographed; it's a slow, methodical service. The priest speaks and whispers and blows, and the trees bow their heads, though they never kneel. They sway, but never lower their craving, reaching arms.

The moon takes the place of the sun. Maybe they'd recognize their god's light, I thought, but they didn't. Just as the shadows chased away the heavenly father, as is the mindless march of time, so did the trees' prayer warp. It no longer carries that same warmth and understanding, that scream for life. Now, it cries and it thinks and it rages.

Their fingers don't yearn and they don't dance. They reach like blades. The trees see a different nature in the moon, they see it as a phantasm, a mirage, a simulacrum of heat that brings nothing but pale light. They wag their fingers as they cry out, they rage at the darkened heavens as they scream. Their trunks are rugged and cracked, bleeding sap. Every new branch nothing but a tumorous growth from a gaping wound, but they take all they can get. They brandish their swords and they stab with their spears.

A blowing priest into a howling general. It screams like they scream, it cries like they cry, and it howls as they creak.

The very stars cower, tiny in the sky.

The moon hides behind the clouds.

The trees never sleep; they never forget. Still, in the morning, they will pray to the sun, with smiles carved into their bodies.

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My little brother is awesome! :D

I got to speak to him, and I love him so much! We talked politics. It was great :D

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I've been thinking of switching from Windows into some Linux distro. I haven't given this too much thought. I have a laptop somewhere with Debian installed---or Ubuntu, I don't quite remember---and I used to have Arch on it.

That part isn't really too much of a concern. If I really want to switch, I can easily get it on my laptop, or actually buy a new laptop so I can have a Windows and a Linux machine for different purposes. My current laptop is a little... Slow, to put it kindly, regardless.

The Android side of things, however, is a little bit weirder. I know that there's a lot of custom ROMs and OSes out there that increase privacy and de-Google your device and whatnot, but I simply don't know enough about basically any of them to make an informed decision.

I've heard of GrapheneOS, which seems cool but is only compatible with Pixel phones, it seems. I've heard of CalyxOS too, but I've heard some less than great reviews; I like Futo and Calyx is sponsored by them, but I don't put my trust there enough to just trust it. Maybe /e/OS is the best option?

I'll look into it.


I need to start taking notes... I keep forgetting the stuff I want to write about when it's time to write these posts.

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I hate WhatsApp. Or rather, I hate how much of a grip on the market WhatsApp has.

Basically everybody uses WhatsApp over here; it's a given that you'd have WhatsApp if your age is below 55 or something. 55-year-olds are also expected to have WhatsApp, actually, if they have a smartphone... Which would be expected of a 55-year-old. I don't know what the cut-off age is, but it's high!

There's Signal, for example, which has equivalent functionality, but people just don't use it. The point of communication is to communicate, there's no point in being alone on Signal while everyone else is on WhatsApp.

I suppose that what's keeping the crown on WhatsApp's head is the fact it's closed-source. If there was a way to write an app like Signal that also interopped with WhatsApp I'd switch in an instant. Now, because of the Digital Markets Act, this should happen eventually... But it seemingly isn't happening.

I'm trying to wean myself off of Google, too. It's really hard though. Google has really entrenched itself into my life in a way that I simply hadn't realized. Before I knew it, I look around and everything's Google: my entertainment, my communication... I'm using a Tuta account now, for sign-ups and the like. I've also ditched Google Drive and associated services. But it's simply impossible, right now, to get rid of everything.

Slowly, though, I'm moving further and further away from these gigacorps.

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I reviewed Re:Zero today, so that'll be the daily post.

cross-posted from: https://lemm.ee/post/56619187

More than meets the eye, again and again.

At first, things seem quiet and unremarkable. A cliché premise, cliché developments, cliché characters... Actually, things didn't seem quiet and unremarkable at all; Re:Zero seemed boring and uninteresting. More of that ever-pouring slop Japanese webnovels insist on becoming, more of that persistent stench of mediocrity and the unbridled numbness of barren creativity.

Re:Zero is just more of the same old, same old.

At first...

But, at first, even the normal is strange. Even as we're born, we cry. We're confused, lost, terrified as the world that we now take for granted assaults our senses and wrecks our mind and body alike. Voices endless, smells, feelings, all of it is so much---too much! What makes life beautiful aren't the large pieces that we all have in common, but the small distinctions that make us unique. One would assume death is the same, of course.

All one can do is assume death is the same. That is, of course, except for Natsuki Subaru.

Re:Zero throws us into the typical isekai fantasy world---it even tricks us for a bit!---but pretty soon we understand that that's not the case at all. Natsuki Subaru doesn't die. Or rather, he dies and is then reborn. He gets to try again. That's what Re:Zero is about.

What if you could try again? What if your biggest failures were erased and you had a do-over?

As a premise, this is brilliant. It's not the first time I've read a time-travel story with a somewhat similar outline---shout-out to Mother of Learning---but Re:Zero is unique enough from within what I've read to trigger that novelty factor.

The cast is extensive and varied, including several of the traditional isekai tropes while continuously subverting them in some of the most creative ways possible. Even Subaru himself, the MC, is a subversion of the typical isekai MC. He reminds me of Kazuma from KonoSuba, actually, at first.

That's always the point, isn't it? At first, at first, at first... There's always more than meets the eye.

If that was all that Re:Zero was, it would be enough to make for a good story. However, Subaru is faced with the flip-side of his condition: he loses all the good parts too. The pain, the suffering, the despair that dripped from the pages when he loses everything was at times so overwhelming I actually had to take a breather. It's like the Witch's miasma bled through the screen and seeped into my eyes---that's the only reason I cried, of course...

What if you had to choose? What if you could try again, but even then you failed?

The ever-growing pressure of his mistakes digs into your heart and crushes your very soul, I'm telling you. Seeing him come to terms with how much he's lost and watching him gather the courage to keep going... It's beyond fantastic.

My biggest gripes with the novel are the following:

  • The translation is mediocre and littered with errors;
  • Subaru does too much talk no jutsu.

Still, it's not a big deal. I'm used to reading webnovels, so reading a poor translation isn't a significant problem; I just expected more. Subaru's incessant yapping can get frustrating at times, but I can rationalize it by saying that, well, if he dies, he can just try something else. When it works, it's hard to say that that wasn't the best option so... I can't really complain... I just don't like it that much. Let it be known, though, Re:Zero isn't just Subaru's yapsesh; he very much works! He tries, and fails, and tries, and fails, and he tries again. He tries everything he can think of. What I love most, perhaps, is that he doesn't get random power-ups like you see in other series. He gets stronger by failing and learning. He improves slowly by trial and error. It's really satisfying to see him figure things out!

The world is getting more and more complex by the volume, by the chapter, by the page really. By Volume 15, it felt like the world had grown ten-fold, both geographically and lore-wise. It's so complex and enticing with so many mysteries to dive into. I can't wait to learn more.

I mentioned the extensive cast already, but there's really no reason not to bring it up again. There isn't a single character I dislike in this whole thing. There are characters that are very much despicable, yes, but there aren't any of those cliché "bad because they're bad" or "good no matter what" characters. Every character is either extremely complex, with believable and deeply emotional motivations, or simply not developed enough to tell just yet. After all, there's so many characters but only so many pages to talk about them. I don't think that's to the detriment of the narrative in the slightest, though.

Really, the only character I actually have sincere gripes with is Subaru himself! Specifically in regards to his choice of heroine. He's wrong, and I'll stand by that. He's the only character in the whole series whose motivation I question. You'd think this would be a big deal, but it really isn't. He's an idiot, an irredeemable moron. That's what makes his story so compelling: we get to see an irredeemable moron turn into a somewhat redeemable moron, little by little, life by life, death by death.

Is this the greatest masterpiece of the 21st century? The century isn't over just yet, but it's in the running; I'll tell you that much.

What do you think?


Rating: 5/5

Read on Witch Cult Translations!
Disclaimer: I read the Light Novel version of Re:Zero, not the WCT webnovel translation.

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Neolatino (lemm.ee)
submitted 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) by [email protected] to c/[email protected]
 
 

I recently came across Romance Neolatino (Neolatin). It's an auxiliary conlang based on romance languages which aimed to be like a natural evolution of Vulgar Latin---that's what Wikipedia says, at least. I think that's a really neat idea.

I knew of Interlingua already and how understandable it was for romance language speakers, such as myself, but Neolatino is even more so.

These languages really aren't very useful, of course. After all, if two people want to understand each other, especially if they already speak languages in the same family, then they might as well just learn each other's language instead of diving into some conlang that nobody actually speaks. The benefits of learning Neolatino would be to kind of surprise people by speaking something that they don't recognize and yet understand? Maybe? Which is rather silly, of course.

I should really learn French...

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I've been thinking about this a little bit lately, on account of the recent push on Reddit to ditch American companies and services in favour of European ones. Not that the Fediverse is European... I digress.

It seems that the single biggest hang-up people have with adopting Fediverse social media is the servers.

Lemmy's onboarding experience, for one, is absolutely terrible.

Lemmy's landing page.

What's a server? Why do I need to join? What's the difference between the different servers?

All of these are reasonable questions, and they're not answered in a clear way at any point. This turns people away; they get confused and then give up on joining.

Mastodon is a little better, but not by a lot.

Mastodon's landing page.

At least they highlight a server for people to join, making things a little more intuitive. Mastodon actually has a whole other issue regarding the way feeds are organized on the app, but I'll leave that for another post.

The problem with the Mastodon approach is, of course, that it heavily funnels people towards a single server. The whole point of the Fediverse is to be decentralized, so that's a rather counterproductive approach.

I wonder if it wouldn't be possible to suggest (heavily suggest) a server based on the user's location or something, maybe weighted by how many active users there are or something.

Basically, a balance needs to be struck between pushing people towards a server and not pushing everyone towards the same few servers.

Of course, many Lemmy servers don't actually disclose where they're hosted, so that could be a problem... Or not, I guess if there was a push for this system then servers might feel that it benefits them to disclose that information. Or maybe not, and that could be good too, I don't know.

The thing is that there's a problem. People see this whole "server" talk and turn tail.

Also, Lemmy looks ugly AF! There's plenty of alternative front-ends, of course,---I use Alexandrite---but it's really frustrating that the default look sucks so bad.

Sigh!


Mostly unrelated, but I'd like to talk about some stuff I'll be using going forward. Well, I hope to, anyway.

Email: Tuta
Drive: Filen.io
Map: HERE WeGo
Office: LibreOffice

The rest I haven't changed like Firefox and AntennaPod. I did also switch to the Fossify suite for my phone app, file manager, and gallery.

WhatsApp is a tough one... It's basically a must-have here. It's so engrained in day-to-day communication that not having the app is the equivalent of being a 70-year-old grandma or something. Nothing against grandmas of course, but they're not working or texting a bunch of young people everyday.

I thought that maybe Element could replace it? I think Element is more of a Discord type of thing... Some people mentioned Threema online, but that's a paid product. Signal is virtually the same as WhatsApp, but open-source and by a non-profit. Maybe it's a better option? It's not European, though. Well, a hard problem to solve, I guess.

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Recently, there's been a push online for buying European and boycotting the US, on account of Trump's policies and stances on certain international issues.

I don't think that's a bad thing, but I do have some concerns. For one, let me set the record straight: if I can buy second-hand, I will buy second-hand. I've made this decision. By second-hand, I do also mean refurbished and whatnot. Basically, I'd like to give products a second life, is possible. I think that should take precedence over any political affiliation.

For example, I saw someone suggest, online, that we should buy Jack & Jones instead of Levi's jeans. OK, fine! Levi's are overhyped anyway, and Jack & Jones are way cheaper. However, I do think that buying second-hand Levi's is way better than buying new from J&J.

I do think I'll try to buy more European, though. Not like I have a lot of money to spend, but I like the idea of supporting European, and specifically national brands.

Something I want to sink some money into is a new e-book reader. I read a lot, mostly Re:Zero but I do also read a bunch of other things, as it goes. Currently, I have a Kindle 10th Gen. Not a paperwhite, just a regular Kindle. It's a little old, at this point, has quite a bit of bloat---I don't use the shop at all, I don't use the Wi-Fi or the Bluetooth either---, but worst of all, the battery drains like crazy.

Now, again, I do read a lot, maybe I'm a so-called poweruser, but this is not enough battery!

As such, I've been looking around. My dad is a fan of Kobo, it turns out, but I've also been looking at Vivlio, Pocketbook, and some other brands. My biggest issue, other than price (these things are more expensive than I expected...), is the features. I don't need, or want, these features.

I want something as simple as possible! DAMN IT!

I've still got a lot of other brands to look at, of course, but I'm really hoping I can find something worth buying.

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I've been eating relatively well. Feeling good about that.

I cut down on snacks significantly this week. I did eat some chips, but it was OK.

I hope I'm losing weight, a little bit... My weight is OK, mind you, but it's a little higher than my goal, so I'll be working hard to reach it.

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I finished Volume 15 of Re:Zero.

It was great! However, I feel a little... Taken for a spin. It wasn't very distressing at all! I was expecting my heart to be ripped out of my chest and stomped on, but instead it was gently caressed and snuggled up to.

I can't say I'm upset---I'm not---but it was certainly unexpected.

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I'm afraid war is coming.

The US's decline into fascism is... Regrettable. War is so senseless... But I can't help but think that what's going on will inevitably lead to that. Maybe I'm wrong, I hope I'm wrong.

Truly, I know nothing. Still, it seems unwise to ignore the signs. Trump and the US as a whole are basically saying that they want war. They are masking it behind a veneer of peace-talks, but really they're just saying they want the war to go a certain way: the way of the aggressors, the way of the warmongers. They want war, it seems.

Very, very upsetting.

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Gender (lemm.ee)
submitted 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago) by [email protected] to c/[email protected]
 
 

I follow a few people that go by they/them or that simply don't subscribe to that whole spiel. Personally, I don't care about gender at all; I think that's either an extremely agender or an extremely cis thing to say. In my case, I think I'm just cis.

Still, it's not like other genders bother me. Not even a little. It's simply something that, to me, holds absolutely no weight whatsoever. I've realized, over the years, that that's a somewhat controversial position.

Most---if not all---men I've ever spoken to about this have made it clear that women and men are, as far as they're concerned, different. I mean, on the surface, I agree; men and women are different because men are men and women are women, but that's like saying the rising sun is different from the setting soon. I think that's a perfect analogy, actually. Why would I care if someone is the sun at noon or the sun at night? It's still the sun; I don't care.

Now, of course, there's the issue of living. Different people, because of the way they identify themselves---their identity---do live differently. I'm not trying to deny that fact.

However, I think that misses the issue entirely. In my view, the whole question is wrong.

To me, gender is irrelevant because a person isn't a gender. Are women different from men? That's such a stupid question. Everyone is different from everyone else, no?! I've never met someone like me. I've met people that are similar to me---most of them have been women, by the way---and I've certainly met people that share some things in common with me, but I've never met someone entirely like me.

Are men and women different?

Can someone be something other than a man or a woman?

Why would I care? Those questions are laid upon a terrible premise. As such, they simply don't matter.

I realize that lived experiences aren't quite as detached from reality as I'm framing this issue, mind you, and I do realize that trans people do suffer quite intensely. I don't mean to sound... Dismissive of their strife. All I'm trying to say is that, fundamentally, I find the whole concept of gender to be rather empty.

Throughout my life, I've felt that women tend to take a liking to me. Women and children, actually, but children isn't a gender so I'll gloss past that one.

I wonder if my view of gender has anything to do with that. I've thought that, maybe, women go their whole life being treated as different by the men in their life and they like it when they get treated as fundamentally equal. Or maybe it's just a different feeling, not a strictly good one, and their curiosity is being misinterpreted by yours truly as affection. Children like me too, after all, maybe I'm just kinda weird... I'm not sure.

Being raised differently, with different expectations and different experiences... Of course men and women are different. Then again, everyone is raised differently, so everyone is different.

It'd be silly to make a gender for everyone, of course. I suppose that's a name, actually. A name is like a gender that refers to only one person? I think that makes perfect sense.

See, I'm not opposed to putting people in buckets for convenience. I just think that the particular buckets we put people into suck. I feel like gender should convey meaningful information. I guess that's why some transphobes are so upset, actually, as they relied on gender to figure out people's genitalia? Trans people throw a wrench in that so they get mad? Maybe my rather uninterested take on interpersonal relationships makes that particular bit of information seem disproportionally irrelevant, and in turn, I devalue gender.

Maybe that's why I've obsessed with personality-type quizzes... Maybe not, lots of people like those. I do think stuff like that is a better gender, though, even if it's not very good either.

Well, that's just what I think, anyway.

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I follow this recovering alcoholic on TikTok.

Addiction seems so... Intense...

It's so scary.

I've also gotten a few videos of losing gamble compilations. It's so scary. Scary. Terrifying.

I wonder if I have an addictive personality. I just avoid this kind of stuff like the plague... Drugs, alcohol, gambling... Well.

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I want to play cards so bad!

I played a lot with my little brother the past couple of days, but I really want to play team games... Sueca or Bridge, Oh man! I really feel it! Or Poker... I play Poker online, sometimes, but I'm no good and I don't like putting in real money... I'd really love to have a group of people I can play for beans with IRL.

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I've loved card games for as long as I can remember. Lately, I've been more or less obsessed with poker. The bluffing aspect of the game, specifically, is something that I find really appealing. As such, yesterday evening, I decided to come up with a card game that incorporates bluffing.

There were a few elements that I wanted to include in the game, based on some other cards games that I absolutely love, namely: Sueca and Blackjack.

The game I came up with---which I'm calling "Lie 21"---is a bluffing trick-taking game where the goal of each hand is to make 21; the unholy child of Sueca, Poker, and Blackjack, if you will. I summarized the rules here.

Lie 21 is played between 2 players using a French deck with 2 Jokers (42 cards; the same as a standard 52-card deck, but with the 8s, 9s, and 10s removed and the 2 Jokers added). At the start of the game, 6 cards are dealt to each player and the last card of the deck is flipped up; the suit of this last card is the trump for the duration of the game. The player that makes the first move is decided randomly, with a coin-flip, for example.

Each hand, the starting player selects three cards from the 6 in their hand, and places them on the table with 1 face-up and 2 face-down. The other player must then select three cards from their own hand and place them on the table, all of them either face-up or face-down.

If the second player's cards are placed face-down, the trick is awarded to the first player. The face-down cards cannot be revealed to either player, and the 6 cards on the table are collected by the player that won the trick.

If the second player's cards are placed face-up, then the first player must flip of all their own cards face-up as well. At this point, the game basically turns into a wacko Blackjack.

Cards are valued at their face value, except for the following, which are valued as indicated here:

  • A: 1 or 11
  • 7: 10
  • K: 9
  • J: 8
  • Q: 7
  • Joker: 0

I'm Portuguese, which is why the Jack is valued higher than the Queen, but this is obviously irrelevant. Feel free to switch them, if you prefer. The scoring system is based on Sueca, which is why the 7 is worth 10... If this is confusing, feel free to score the cards as you see fit, as long as you retain the descending scoring pattern for all cards (11/1, 10, 9, 8, 7, 6...).

If a player busts (goes over 21) and the other doesn't, then the player that didn't bust wins the trick. Otherwise, the player closest to 21 wins the trick. In case of a tie (both players busting is considered a tie), the winning hand is the one with the most trump cards. If the hands have the same number of trumps, then the hand with the highest value trump card wins (if the Ace is valued at 1 in the hand, then it is the lowest trump card, if it is valued at 11, it is the highest trump). If no trumps were player by either player and their hand is a tie, then the player that started the hand wins. Neither Joker is ever a trump card.

It's important to note that, as there are no 2-card hands possible, two Aces is not "Blackjack"; it's impossible to play just two Aces. Two Aces and a Joker, for example, is scored as 12. Two 7s and an Ace is scored as 21; An Ace, a 7, and Joker is also scored as 21.

After each hand, the player that won the previous trick draws 3 cards (so they have 6 cards in hand once again), followed by the losing player drawing 3 cards. Then, the player that won the last trick starts the next one.

For the last 2 hands, when the deck is empty, no cards are drawn after the winner is decided.

After the game is done, the players calculate their final score with the Sueca scoring system (120 total), wherein all cards are worth 0, except for the following, which are worth as indicated:

  • A: 11
  • 7: 10
  • K: 4
  • J: 3
  • Q: 2

The player with the most points wins (61+).

I recommend playing best-of-7 (first-to-4). Scoring over 90 is worth 2 for the winning player, and scoring 120 is an immediate sweep.

While testing the game, I also tried scoring the K, J, and Q as 9, 8 and 7, respectively, but ended up deciding against it because it led to play being very tight, with the face cards rarely being sacrificed willingly. I felt like lowering the points of the face cards to the traditional Sueca point system made the game more nuanced.

My brother and I absolutely LOVED playing this!

The bluffing element worked really well. More often than not, it's pretty easy to get 21 on any given hand, but the trump card aspect of the game makes it much more complex to figure out who actually has a winning hand. We often bluffed each other with lower-scoring hands, to one another's chagrin. The fact there's plenty of cards with no points also makes this rather interesting. We often played our cards face-down, as the second player, effectively forfeiting the round and losing information, to avoid going first in the next hand. This was particularly nice when trying to get the trump card at the bottom of the deck, of course, a very common pattern in games like Briscola and such. Playing the cards face-down, as the second player, also has the benefit of withdrawing information from the other player, like the number of remaining Jokers in the deck.

At first, I was a little sceptical that the forfeiting mechanic would actually be useful, but it turned out to add another dimension to the game.

The Jokers aren't very useful, but they do provide some value occasionally, as they add an interesting dynamic when they're the revealed card at the start of a hand, wherein the implication is that the player has 21 with Ace-7, but the Joker itself doesn't score any points if won in the trick.

Overall, it's been lots of fun! Let me know if you try it out.


I also tried a couple of different versions of the game, without the Jokers.

The first was played exactly the same, except for the last hand, which was only 2 cards. The issue with this version was that it led to Aces being hoarded rather intensely until the end, as the best hand was unequivocally the Ace-Ace of trump. Additionally, this setup means the last draw is actually only 2 cards for each player. That isn't a big deal, per se, but it's a little annoying.

The second was played the same, but with 5 cards in hand instead of 6. This solved the last-draw problem, but the issue of hoarding Aces for the last hand remained. Additionally, having only 5 cards in-hand, as opposed to 6, means it's harder to get 21, which resulted in a lot of dead hands, which was rather unsatisfying. I felt like 6 cards in hand really is the sweet-spot for the game. Having 5 cards in hand did mean that there was no way to "save a hand," as in, save 3 cards for a next round, as you'd always be left with only 2 cards in hand after playing. I felt that it was impossible to square this circle, so I went with the option I had the most fun with, which was the 6-card version.

Another thing I'd like to point out is that the Jokers are, themselves, basically bricks. They're not useless, but they aren't very useful. However, they managed to strike a bit of a three-quarters point between the 5-card and 6-card versions of the game, in a manner of speaking. Having a Joker in your hand is painful, until it's not. It's great for bluffing too, and it resolved the issues with the 2-card hand at the end of the other two versions.

Overall, I think it's a very fun game!

I do wonder if something similar already exists, but I couldn't find anything.

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I watched a TikTok, just a few minutes ago, about a role-reversal in the American dynamic of women insulting women based on their political affiliations and physical appearances.

Specifically, it was about how American conservative women now find themselves taken aback by the onslaught of insults coming from liberal American women, who have themselves been the target of insults from the other camp for quite some time.

However, this is seemingly not a fight on equal footing because of the very basis of the dogfight. See, conservative ideology bases itself on a strict adherence to gender roles, which includes the idea that women should be beautiful, generally speaking. On the other hand, American liberal ideology bases itself on a rejection of gender roles, including the rejection of beauty standards altogether.

Of course, nobody likes to be demeaned or insulted; when their appearance is dragged through the mud, even liberal women feel hurt. However, it's deeper than that for the other side.

For conservative women, to have their appearance insulted, to have their beauty---as in, their adherence to the beauty standards---be criticized, is to have their very nature be put into question. If they aren't beautiful, they are failing at being women, and that is the biggest sin an American conservative women can commit. When they're called ugly, they feel that it is their womanhood being attacked, and as that is what they cling to, it hurts much more than a simple insult.

Personally, I find it in rather poor taste to reduce oneself to dick-measuring contests (or mascara-application competitions, I guess), but I do see the humour in the dynamic.

I felt somewhat fancy, tonight; hope it came through in the text.

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I often think about corruption.

There's bad people out there, but I do find it hard to believe that the only people that succumb to corruption are bad.

Recently, I've been thinking a little about the Luka trade from the Dallas Mavericks to the Lakers. It seems the consensus online was that this trade was sketchy---likely the result of some sort of corruption. Either the owners want to get the team to Vegas (unlikely) or they're cheap, but there's something they're not saying, and the fans feel like what happened was bad for the league in in general.

I wonder why they did it. Is it possible that Nico Harrison really is just a monumental idiot? Surely not. He's proven a few times that he can make reasonable trades. I find it extremely hard to believe that he'd make such a mess. As such, I'm also inclined to think something's afoot.

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I'm a big fan of the occult. I've read quite a few grimoires and books of the sort, I've participated in some discussions online, whatever. That being said, I don't believe in the supernatural. Sure, there's many things we struggle to understand, but I'm a firm believer in the scientific method, rather than superstition.

That being said... I also think that there's no good reason to open an umbrella indoors. It's just one of those things, you know? You knock on wood, don't walk under a ladder, don't open an umbrella indoors, and so on. I guess I just... Go a few steps further. If someone asks me "Can I have your name?" I answer "I'll tell you, but you can't have it!" and laugh. I frame it as a little joke, but it's really not. For me, it's the same as the umbrella: I don't want to give anyone my name. I don't like telling people my name to begin with, but I refuse to give them my name.

I also hate talking about fairies and witches. I hate jinxes too. It's the kind of stuff I just don't do, because why would I? Why risk it? Even if it's impossible, why leave the door open? I don't.

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I really like cool designs.

I think of myself as a fundamentally utilitarian person, when it comes to my purchases. I buy few things, and when I do, I try to make them high-quality and affordable.

That being said, I also find compelling designs to be... Well, compelling! A few years ago I dabbled in graphic design, did a few random things, nothing major, but it was lots of fun. Whenever I see a brand or packaging that's really cute or memorable, I really like it.

This isn't really particularly notable, I realize. That's the whole point of cool design, really. Still.

I know this guy---we're in the same Discord server---and he's a graphic designer. Or, well, he does graphic design. I was a graphic designer, then he worked in healthcare for a while, now he's going back to design... It's something like that, I'm not too sure. Regardless, I think the things he does are really cool.

I'm often taken by daydreams of idealism. One of these idealistic dreams is that of a single company that produces everything. Maybe it'd be more of a conglomerate? I don't know.

When I think about that, I get butterflies~ There's such a charming simplicity to that idea, I think.

I don't mean to demean---how musical...---individuality, but rather suggest the idea of a baseline. I think it'd be cool for a culture to have a "uniform"---something that everyone wears---but also support individuality and expression. Maybe this is impossible? I guess the value of that kind of thing would be not much... Everyone needs basics, but if everyone wants to wear different clothes, it would defeat the point a little. Maybe.

I don't know.

I wonder about cookware. Stainless is the way to go? I'll have to do some research on prices.

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It's official. I'm addicted to Re:Zero.

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I think Tappei Nagatsuki is a sadist.

I say "I think" more in the sense of "I know," actually.

There is no way that he makes Subaru go through this much pain and suffering if he's not thoroughly enjoying it.

At first, I thought he might be a masochist and Subaru was a self-insert, but I simply refuse to believe there's a maso out there that craves suffering to that extent. I refuse to believe it. Or rather, I simply don't want to live in a world where someone like that exists.

Truly, Subaru is nothing but a vessel for horror. This novel is not whatever the fuck novelupdates calls it.

Insanity

It is pure and unadulterated pain. It is trauma in written form. What in the fuck.

I'm like 80% through Volume 6. As far as I can tell, I haven't even reached the most traumatic parts of this story. I have barely scratched the surface of this seemingly endless pit of depravity that calls itself "Re:Zero," written by what must be the world's greatest sadist: Tappei Nagatsuki.

This man is Hell. Note the capital H. I believe---hear me out---that Tappei Nagatsuki is the physical incarnation of Hell.

I looked it up. 15. Volume 15 is said to contain the most fucked up shit. I'm not even halfway there. I'm dying here. I... I can't... I'll get nightmares. I'm struggling to breathe, reading this accursed tome.

Tappei Nagatsuki, when I catch you Tappei Nagatsuki... When I catch you...

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